♥ Runaway ♥: Life Isn't About Waiting For The Storm To Pass

it's about learning to dance in the rain. ;)

It's actually 2:17am, 29th may right now, ignore the date of this post. Just FOUR more days 'till mid term ends, and OH MY GOSH I'LL BE ON CLOUD NINE. =D But one thing for sure is that, i've screwed my physics paper completely. When i first received the paper, i flipped through the pages and thought, you're kidding me right? Then i started daydreaming, people daydream when they don't know what else to do. I was spewing four letter words silently, like shit, and of course the infamous f-bombs. *HUGE sigh* =( Random thoughts popped out of my mind, like how will Brother John laughs 'till he rolls on floor when he marks my paper, then the radio in his house will be playin' "you're hot and you're cold, you're yes and you're no", 'cos it's related to the chapter "heat" somehow. == Or worse still, i thought of how great will it be, if i can be like carrie underwood, singing "undo it" and totally rock the american idol finale's stage. Or backpacking around the world, camwhoring with every single statue that i find in greece. Come on, when there's muse, there's daydream, ermmmm......., i mean dream. =)

Okayy, i should stop wandering off the point, my point is that, I MYSELF DON'T KNOW WHAT ON EARTH AM I DOING IN PURE SCIENCE STREAM. == After two tormenting years in science class, biology tells me where babies come from, physics tells me not to idiotically jump into a pool, 'cos it's not as shallow as it seems, and chemistry tells me moles are not those 3D black spots on your face. My intention of entering science class in the first place was simply because i wasn't sure of my future career choice. Now i'm absolutely sure that finance and banking is my choice, i feel bloody empty. == I have nothing against science class, i'm taking accounts anyway. It's just that i really hate to be constrained by unattainable expectations, bounded by stereotypical mind set kind of feeling. When you give up Faraday's Law for Cecelia Ahern, you know that it's impossible to cram all the facts, which seem more like ultimate bullshit to you, it will be a waste of time and effort in the end. Like COMPLETELY.

But fortunately, these two years have been phenomenal, with the presence of a bunch of crazy people, namely FRIENDS. =D When all i know was some archimedes guy invented something when he was bathing in a bath tub or so, i called up yu song, and he agreed to help me without a doubt. Or when i nearly tore up those differentiation exercises, alicia was there to make sure that i didn't concede defeat. When win yen spent her precious hours answering my stupidly funny questions about the chapter "straight line", i know who wants the best for me. Not to forget shu ling, meeting her was like the turning point of my life. She's the most happy-go-lucky and patient person you will ever meet! She said and i quote: determination gives me the resolve to keep going in spite of the roadblocks that lay before me. =) Oh and kai xiang, who can be the lamest person on earth and has never ffk on me, NOT EVEN ONCE. =D I think i've broken out of my comfort zone after bearing the responsibility as an unit leader, working together with your best friends suck, A LOT. FRIENDSHIP hasn't been the easiest thing to keep, we've had arguments and quarrels more than ever. But all in all, i know very well that when i fall, they will be there to catch me. There are ups just like there are downs, those setbacks are nothing horr ZHEN JUE VIAN? =DD

Well, apart from friends, family matters the most of course. =) 'Cos you know deep down that no matter how hurtful and wounding you are when tempers flare, you will be forgiven. And that feeling is like SUPERMAN BATMAN SPIDERMAN AWESOME. =DD I grew up together with barney and big bird, i still recall that i was fascinated by count dracula and cookie monster, AND ELMO, thanks to mommy, haha! My mom is like terrifically cool. She went to USA ALONE in the 80s, just to make a living for the family. Look at her 70s specs in the photo below, LOL! But she actually owns a pair of kanye west shades now. XD She's that very one person who will believe me if i tell her that i heard cows barking at nite, or i saw slimy aliens playing with swings at the playground. Like seriously. LOL!

Popo and mommy raised me up with selfless love. =')