♥ Runaway ♥

I'll Miss You, Slut!

2011-08-18T22:36:00.003+08:00

It has been ages since i last wrote something in this blog, AGES. And guess who got me into the blogging mood, my BFF who's going to canada this coming saturday. Happy sad face? =)= I've mentioned her quite a few times before in here, and i'm gonna start all over again, HAHA YES 'COS SHE'S THAT AWESOME. =p She was my first friend in college, the scene where we first met each other is still so vivid in my mind right now, haha. We were ~~happily~~ sesat-ly walking to the lecture theatre for our orientation, she said hi, i said hello. *BAM*, that was how we started talking to each other. See how powerful "hi' or "hello" can be now? ;D She's that kind of person who's very easy to be around with, she gave me that happy-go-lucky feeling after chatting for just a while. So yea, we clicked INSTANTANEOUSLY, i repeat, INSTANTANEOUSLY. On that day of orientation, she hasn't enrolled to AUP yet actually, so she asked me what subjects was i taking and all, and she registered for the same subjects as i did, the ones that were still available of course. That was what we thought, same subjects. =.=

The know-nothing-'bout-college me went to china for a vacation on the first week of college, haha i'm awesome i know. XD I missed the first three days of classes, i still remember chelle called me when i was packing, then we were like sampat-ing on facebook and what not, i mean what's new right, haha. She said, "i'm kinda scared of the first day of college 'cos you're not there", hahahaha! After i came back from china and went to college, she brought me to buy all the subject basic texts, the very naive us didn't know that there are actually different codes for the same subject, and so i bought the wrong chemistry book 'cos we thought we were classmates. LOL! PATHETICALLY, we didn't have any same subjects AT ALL, not even the SAME BREAKS, like what the hell! Better luck next time huh. =/ Anyway, that didn't stop us from being utter bimbos together, all the time, haha. =p I have no idea how you do that chelle, but YOU ARE ALWAYS SO CHEERFUL, like even if the sky falls down, most probably you'll bring us to eat one last time of macaroons or something. Okay that was a sucky example but yea, hehe. She treats her friends so generously all the time, during sleepovers or breakfast lunch dinner, she never counts every single cent with you. Oh yea did i mention, she lives in ampang and i live in pj, but at times she offered to fetch me back home from college, like how awesome is that! She used to say "come lar i fetch you home", sometimes people say that because they didn't know how to say no if you've asked, but i definitely don't think she forced herself to keep a straight face, she's that kind heehee. =D Oh yea, whenever we cracked a joke or acted like absolute fools, she just laughed her heart out and eventually all of us would be laughing non-stop, then she would comment on someone laughing like a chimpanzee and all that. Evilllll, hahahaha.

I guess the main reason why people like to be around her is because she's so down to earth, no dramas and all that jazz, all you'll feel is sheer fun and positive energy when she's around, that's how i feel at least, haha. She can laugh at the same thing for like over a few hours, haha amazing. =p Remember the "syasya deng hui ge fai" incident? EPIC! I feel so reluctant for her to leave because she won't be coming back until next year's july, and i'll be leaving to US in next year's august, not much time to hang out anymore. =( I'll miss having fun with you sister! Seriously, i'm gonna miss you SO MUCH, but nahhh, i'll miss your iphone more, HAHA WHAT IN THE WORLD. *trying to cover up my vulnerability* =/ Forgive me for getting all sentimental here, just so you know, i feel so grateful to have you as my friend, you always make me feel like i should be a better and happier person, THANK YOU! =D *hugs* Btw i'm trying not to tear here.

the awezummm "M"s?? like what?? i totally made that up, like five minutes ago, hahaha.

the figure-out-the-name-yourself villain is so jealous of the puss-in-boots-wannabe, LOL. ;D

Take care of yourself in canada slut! Please speak good french over there and don't memalukan your fellow malaysians here, er herm. =p Also, don't simply make babies with the drop dead gorgeous mat salleh over there, i know you want to so badly. LOL!!! Take care chelle. =)

P/S: No gong cha for you for one whole year, sucks to be you HAHAHA!!! =p

Loveeees. <3

Life Has Become Immeasurably Better

2011-05-14T21:57:00.006+08:00

since i have known this bunch of awesome people. =)

OMG it has been more than two months since i last updated my blog, and finally, i have something to say, today. ;) This whole belated birthday surprise thing was so overwhelming that you guys left me speechless, literally, lol. Words fail me. The contemplation, the effort, the presents, the cards, the words, the people, the moments, i'm appreciative of the impact these things have on my life. =D The defnition of "friends" for me is: people i can't live without. Thank you win yen, chun kit, alicia, vi-vian, shi yi, kai xiang, diing yienn, hui teng, jia zhen, jia jue and zhi min for the present, thank you so so so much, i absolutely love it! <3 I can foresee, it will be the hardest thing ever for me to leave you guys behind when i go to the states. Although i'll just be there for three years, or slightly longer, i'll miss you guys every day and night! =/ We may be separated by distance, but never at heart.

I would like to talk a bit about college. At first i thought, the dreaded first week of college has finally arrived, there were lots of apprehensions in me. New environment, new subjects, new people, no more girl guides, no more school uniform, no more rigid rules etc. Soon after, i feel extremely blessed to have met a new circle of good friends, we just clicked right away! Especially syasya and both of the michelle lims, BFF! ;D Brandon bro, i didn't forget to mention you lar, hahaha! XD I feel a lot happier in college, partly because i have less obligations right now, thus less stress. Friends and i have outings quite frequently, badminton and swimming, boardgames and bowling, movies and shopping, karaoke and dances, AND A WHOLE LOT MORE, LOL. Despite the fact that we go out so often, we managed to prioritize what's important to us, WE ARE NOT SPENDTHRIFTS BTW, haha. =p

不惜歌者苦，但伤知音稀？不会啊。=)

P/S: Aspetterò. Prometto.

I Need

2011-03-08T20:05:00.003+08:00

a leap of faith.

someone to tell me that i'm wrong.

'Cos i'd rather be hurt by the truth than comforted with a lie.

Because The Things You're Scared Of

2011-01-16T23:59:00.004+08:00

are usually the most worthwhile. ;)

I think it happens to everyone as they grow up, you find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. And so you keep the great memories but find yourself moving on. That's what i'm scared of. But it's perfectly normal. If you think about it, your favourite memories, the most important moments...were you alone? Life's better with company. ;D Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though it's one day further from the last time we saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time we will. =)

Sooo...going into second week of college, so far so good i guess. My favourite classes would be english and sociology. =D Today's english class was full of laughters, just because i got the topic "premarital sex" for my thesis statement. =.= OH EMM GEE LOR. My least favourite class would be calculus. =( If you're close to me, or is a frequent reader of my blog, you would have known that I HATE ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS. I get very easily agitated by math questions that i couldn't solve. I'm annoyed at my stupidity and my lack of logic that everyone else on earth seemed to have. Then i would get disheartened and proceed to stumble in self-pity. HUGE SIGH. ='( I was never good with numbers, and of course still not good with it now. The only thing that exerts a calming effect over me would be telling myself "if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will spend its whole life believing that it's stupid". I may not be a genius, but i gotta tell myself each and everyday that I AM NOT STUPID. Do more math questions marissa. =.=

The reason i'm updating my blog here is because i read Listen's blog the other day. He said and i quote "朋友都纷纷开学了，不然就是在打工，我好想找个朋友出来喝个茶聊个天，至少有一点新鲜的感觉。朋友啊，我想念你们。常常去看你们的部落格，大多数的你们已经没有以往的动力写部落格了吧。我想部落格是一个最能够让别人了解你关心你的地方。" I miss you too my friend! We used to do so many things together, genting trip, movies, driving tests and you crashing my class party, LOL. I've neglected my blog for quite some time, if you're here, you either have nothing better to do, or you STILL have nothing better to do, haha. =p Just joking, some of the people who visit my blog CARE about what's going on with my life and so forth, i appreciate it. =) Btw, if you see me publishing sad and depressing posts, i'm not sad. I'm just pensive, i'm sure that you've had one of those days when nothing helps to lighten your mood at all. So yea, maybe not particularly cheerful, not very decent writing, but at least it made me feel better.

People in the pictures below, i adore you, you awesomely crazily wonderfully amazingly beautiful and special yet weird but unique individual. XD

P/S: I miss the times when ms. ong reminds me over and over and over again in order for me to complete my math model test papers. =/ And thank you readers for putting up with my incoherent bits and pieces.

The Key To Happiness

2011-01-13T16:44:00.012+08:00

is excitement for the future. ;)

It was my first day of college today, how was it? Hmm...KINDA disastrous, LOL! Time for me to settle down after brunei and china trips, post spm outings and all, study mode switched on. =p I'm surprised by the fact that i actually go for january intake, cos' i was like particularly ANTI january intake, haha. XD But after all the counsellings, i've changed my mind. Btw, if you wanna go to brunei, just give me a call and i can be your tour guide, lol! It's such a small country, went there with family to attend a beachside countdown party, released 孔明灯 on 1.1.11, nice experience though, our family togetherness is awesome. =) Moving on to china, i went to 桂林，广西 for six days，my ancestors were from there! It was TREMENDOUSLYCRAZILYEXTREMELY COLD, -1 degree celcius OMG! My nose nearly fell off. =.= My advice, don't ever go to china during january, bring maggi hotcups and milo fuze 3 in 1 whenever you go to china, you'll regret if you don't follow my advice, haha! =p One thing i love about china is that EVERYONE knows how to pronounce my surname correctly, you must be saying "what the hell? =.=", but seriously lor. Okay i'm not going any further regarding my trips.

Sooo, being a freshie in college isn't fun. My closest friend in college would be michelle, we met each other during orientation, and then we just CLICKED right away. =D She's really sweet and nice, i remember when we had lunch in mcd during orientation, something EXTREMELY HILARIOUS happened, i won't ever forget that, LOL! Also, she ordered beef burger and before she started eating, she asked me "do you eat beef?", i said no and she was like "i'm sorry i'm sorry!", i'm totally fine with people who eat beef, but she was just being really polite. =) She even called me to wish me safe in china when i was packing, brought me to buy books for certain classes after i got back in malaysia, love you lots michelle! =D Too bad that we are in different sections of the subjects. =( Made friends with kiat leng and weng hoh too, we'll see how things go on. =) I got really lost in college today, walking up and down the stairs looking for my classroom, gosh! =.= I'm going to and fro school by ktm, the whole journey is really tiring, gotta get used to it. My first day was terrible, but fortunately i met this guy called ryan at the bus station, he directed me onto the right bus and so forth, it was really nice of him, will definitely keep in touch. And thanks to my mom who asked me to get down at pantai dalam station, which was SO WRONG, i was supposed to get down at petaling station, gosh! I got so lost in pantai dalam, it's a malay residential area, people were staring at me wondering what the hell was i doing there, cos' i was the only chinese and basically i had no reason to be there. =.= Then it was raining cats and dogs, how great. I teared when it started raining, a mixture of frustration, feeling ill because of the abrupt weather change between china and malaysia, hungry, lost, alone, exhausted, and the "NOT AGAIN!" sentiment. I got lost in kl the other day, similar situation, alone, inclement weather, hungry, no one was helpful in kl, guards in kl sentral are PLAIN RUDE. I was stranded in plaza sentral, working people with ties and heels staring at me wondering, what is this girl doing here. WAITING FOR THE RAIN TO STOP LAR DUH. =/ Afterall, all these are good experiences, to be more independent, to be more prepared when i further my studies in US. Have you guys watched 3 idiots before? It's a very meaningful movie, i'll just whisper "all is well" to myself everytime i feel like breaking down, it works. ;)

I've experienced lots of new stuffs after spm, drove home alone when the roads were nearly flooded, drove blindly to sri hartamas and mont kiara, scratched my car door at the basement parking of plaza mont kiara, LOL! Vi-vian and diing yienn witnessed that, LAUGH DIE US weih. =.= I'm driving a hyundai sonata btw, i feel so insecure driving this car, it's big, it's powerful, and i'm a 17-year-old female probationer driver, you link them together and visualize what can possibly happen or what could have happened, haha! XD Another thing, i'm like a complete and utter moron when it comes to directions, so god bless me.

I miss high school a lot! I miss girl guides the most. I miss running up and down the stairways during recess, with kertas cadangan aktiviti in my hands. I miss going back to 5S9 every morning, sitting next to alicia, laming with win yen and all. I miss conversing with friends in mandarin. Now i gotta wake up every morning and stand in front of my closet asking, what to wear ah? Gosh...XD No more sitting at the same place for the whole day, no more cheap food at the canteen, no more setting my alarm to 5.50am everyday. But i believe that i'll get used to college life in no time. I'm sure that things will fall in place eventually. I can't wait till the day when taylor's students start school, most of my close friends are in there, must meet up during breaks! But no matter how happening my college life is going to be, high school will forever and always be the best part of my life. High school has shaped me as a person and my very existence, i've became a better person through high school. Improved leadership, less selfish, more respectful, more mature, less vulnerable. In retrospect, i've really gone through A LOT in high school, the most agonizing would be the departure of my grandmother, i treasure my friends and family more than ever now. Okay i should stop recapping, too much to say, hehe. Anyhow, i will never forget catholic high school and the things that i've learnt from there. Stepping on the grounds of my alma mater feels overwhelmingly good! FANFREAKINGTASTIC. ;D

总之，无论我结识了多少个新朋友，以下相片里的人，以及我和他们一起经历的事与物，将永远铭记在心里。

对你们，我只有四个字可以形容：

无可取代　=D

Here we are now,

Everything is about to change,

We face tomorrow as we say goodbye to yesterday,

A chapter ending but the stories have just begun,

A page is turning for everyone.

So i'm moving on,

Letting go,

Holding on to tomorrow,

I've always got the memories,

While i'm finding out who i'm gonna be,

We might be apart but i hope you always know,

You'll be with me wherever i go.

So excited i can barely even catch my breath,

We have each other to lean on for the road ahead,

This happy ending is the start of all our dreams,

And i know your heart is with me.

We'll never fade away. =)

Spontaneity

2010-12-30T00:42:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay.

Sometimes, change may not be what we want.

Sometimes, change is exactly what we need.

And sometimes, saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do.

But sometimes, saying hello again is the thing that breaks you down and makes you more vulnerable than you ever thought possible.

Sometimes, change is too much to bear.

But most of the time, change is the only thing saving your life.

P/S: I don't feel right at this very moment, and no, it's not PMS.

I Am A Chinese Malaysian

2010-09-03T18:18:00.005+08:00

not a Malaysian Chinese. ;)

LOL! I am SUCH an evil sister....that's my bro! HAHA! I made him do that two years ago. XD

It's now three days past Merdeka, I used to see cars putting that little Jalur Gemilang flag up on the car rooves. But no, I didn't see that this time. Worse still, I didn't see that for the past few years as well. When I was a kid, the scene usually fills me with hope, that Malaysians, despite our diversity, are indeed capable of peaceful and harmonious coexistence. It failed to lift my spirits this time. We've been told of the 1Malaysia concept, but I think we don't need to be told to be united. We've come such a long way -- 53 years that it should already be established in our hearts and minds that we ARE united. Unfortunately, you can still see racial discrimination and polarization. There is still this ethnocentric view that the Malays are the dominant group and their rights must be protected, and non-Malays are forever the outsiders. Sejarah exam was held today, and yes, I know very well what Keluhuran Perlembagaan is. I recite that at every single official school assembly. If anyone is to be blamed for highlighting and widening the racial divide among Malaysians, it is the politicians who do so for their own selfish ends and the handful of little Napoleans in the civil service.

It is splendid and indeed a fascinating sight watching Indians eating with chopsticks, or my Chinese friends and I eating roti canai + DHAL CURRY =DDD with hands. It is heartwarming to see all three races who are of different religions and creed mingle with one another without the slightest hint of awkwardness or apprehension when in each other's presence. I feel sad thinking of how hard our forefathers have worked to build our beautiful nation of people, cultures and heritage only to see its progress and development being threatened by male donkeys (~~jackass~~). For the 1Malaysia concept to succeed, I think the government should stop with the race politics. It's exhausting, seriously. We grew up with application forms asking us to tick our race. We should stop depicting a negative image of the other races, stop thinking about "us" and "them" and focus on "we" and "our". No one should be made uncomfortable in their own home. I am neither criticizing Malaysia nor complaining about Malaysia. I just want Malaysians to know that we are free from natural disasters, we have a place to stay, food to eat, and most importantly, education. We are much more fortunate than people who live in poverty, like people in some third world countries.

身为90年代出生的年轻人，8月31日这天对我来说只不过是一天假期。我不能拼凑历史的碎片，因为我所知道的历史，仅仅是从课本读回来的。我没有经历过第二次世界大战，而日本军，英国殖民，共产党。。。一切都任凭我想象，选择我所要相信的。我透过婆婆及爸爸的口述，摸索着50年前的事迹。我爸爸是个超级亲中国的人，他从来都不会为"Negaraku"肃立，反而会为《义勇军进行曲》肃立。当我在拼命为李宗伟喊加油时，他却在我背后拼命为林丹喊加油。=.= 我婆婆逝世时享年79岁，她是一位走过历史、见证过这片土地成长记忆的老人家。每当她向我述说日军侵马，她剪光头躲在割胶园，每天吃番薯或木薯，更曾亲自目睹日军不分男女老少虐待人民的残暴行为时，我都听得津津乐道。她也跟我述说过五一三事件，当时他们男的就组队巡逻，总之几个星期都过着心惊胆战的日子。可见得我们这些9字辈的年轻人是多么幸运。一个马来西亚的精神，就只有喊口号吗？不管怎样都好，无论以后我去到世界的哪一个角落，我都会骄傲地说，我来自马来西亚。

我是马来西亚人，可是不是马来人。我是华人，可是不是中国人。

我爱马来西亚，只因为 -- 家，在马来西亚。=)

家里那一盏橘黄的灯

2010-08-25T17:30:00.005+08:00

我正看着凤凰卫视台的直播，看着在菲律宾遇害的港民，一具具他们的尸体被运入飞机。。。。。此时此刻，我只想告诉他们的家人，别哭。报纸是我每天的精神粮食，可是最近我对报纸产生了一种厌恶感。每天翻开报纸，赵明福含冤待雪，政治人物口沫横飞，弃婴有如家常便饭，天灾连连，人祸不断。除了悲叹之外，我们根本不能做些什么。看着杨伟光家人跪总统府，呈逾十万人签名求宽赦，我们所有人都认为他不该死，那么到菲律宾旅行的港民该死？一呱呱坠地就被父母把他当成垃圾的婴儿该死？一个再也平凡不过的舟曲小朋友该死？怀胎八个月的教师及同事该死？我是个相信命中注定的人，但我更明白法与理，情与义，自古两难全。世上又何止一个杨伟光？

世事如棋局局新，没有人能够预料下一秒将发生什么事。也许下一秒遇害的是他，是你，是我。2008年的四川大地震，随命运的摇晃，一时的悲痛和泪水过后，劫后余生的地震灾民将开始重建自己的家园，幸运而艰难的新生活终将开始。虽然他们在地震中没有颓然倒下，但是活下去却需要更大的勇气和坚持。对我而言，这一切天灾人祸，让人们变得如此纯洁而深刻，命运残忍的一课，让我们彻悟了生命之脆弱、功名利禄之虚妄，也让我们洞悉了哲学教授和伦理学者无法说清的很多道理。此时，我们都知道，我们生而为人，我们暂居人世，我们最该看重和珍爱的究竟是什么。我们当中许多人也许都未能感受到滔天之灾带来的撼地之痛，锥心之伤，但我们绝对不可以藐视它们。

自然界有无情的天灾意外，人间有温暖的怀抱。命运之潮十分强大，许多时候并非人力所能扭转，认命并不见得是一件坏事。世上许多人都有他们无处安放的哀伤，他们都渴望关怀。永远记得，只有两种乌云可以遮日。一种云能给世界带来赋予生命的细雨，它让我们对这新鲜的大地微笑。另一种云是可怕的，具有毁灭性的。它遮住我们心中的太阳，我们将活在暗淡无光的世界里，鸟儿消失了，歌声停止了，花儿也垂下了头。

我在家里那一盏橘黄的灯下，告诉自己，谁也不许偷走太阳。=)

Notice The Bumble Bee

2010-08-24T17:52:00.003+08:00

the small child, and the smiling faces. =)

Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams. ;) What's my dream? Well, not exactly my ultimate dream, but my short term goal for now -- complete my undergraduate degree in the University of Pennsylvania. When I was young, my parents never depicted that being a doctor/lawyer is a big big deal, they never made me think that it's a must for me to become a professional. Try asking MOST people what they want out of life and the answer is simple -- to be successful. If someone did ask "What do you want to be in the future?", in accordance with that, say profession or career wise, and at this point of my life, I would just shrug. =p But I guess this goes out to all teenagers walking in the same shoes, filled with dilemma on the immense question of "What to be when I grow up?". =/

To some people, they wanna be famous and wealthy, run a rosy business, acquire a perfect lover and blissful marriage etc. Bear in mind to never say never to your dreams even though people may mock at you, or even laugh at you as they may think that your dreams are unattainable or you are merely a dreamer. Sooo......back to my short term goal. XD You may wonder, why USA? It's because my mom worked in US before, for around 3-4 years. She basically told me everything good about US, she worked in New Jersey and Allentown (Pennsylvania), she stayed in Brooklyn (New York) and so forth. Then my second eldest sister's boyfriend graduated from St. Cloud State University (Minnesota), he too has told me how challenging was it to study overseas in the US. He worked as a NIGHT GUARD in his campus, and heard creepy noises during midnight. GOSHHH......spooky. =/ Nonetheless, after listening to all the recaps from them, I am VERY SURE that I will LOVE US heaps! =D

Before I get accepted into UPenn, there would be hurdles. UPenn is one of the Ivy League schools, but I would never see it as a full stop. In the future, I hope to excel in my studies and see the world through different perspectives. What's important is to be able to balance my life and learn to enjoy the little things that are truly of utmost importance -- family and friends. =) Without them, there won't be me. The smiles of my dearly departed granny, will encourage me to strive and achieve even greater heights. =')

I really hope to see myself in that 4 years later. But what I genuinely want, is to live well, laugh often, love much. ;)

P/S: I hope the world doesn't end in 2012 though. =p GO GREEN AND SAVE EARTH! ^^

The Best Things In Life

2010-08-22T23:51:00.016+08:00

- Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
- Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
- Making new friends and spending time with the old ones.
- Singing in the bathroom.
- Sweet dreams.
- Hot chocolate.
- Making brownies and cookies.
- Holding hands with someone you care about.
- Watching a sunset.
- Taking long, hot showers.
- Iced latte.
- Being imperfect.
- Knowing that somebody misses you.

So on and so forth. =)

Anywayyy......FUN FACTS COMIN' UP. =D (~~or not~~)

No. 1 --> My body weight is exactly 45kg. I've donated 300ml of blood. =)

No. 2 --> CHS Guides is sponsoring a child through World Vision. He's a Laotian and conspicuously adorable. =D

No. 3 --> My family and I visited Kuching, Sarawak during the first semester hols. I've visited Kota Kinabalu, Sabah before this and I LOVEEE EAST MALAYSIA. ;D

No. 4 --> I was the babysitter of my nephew for FOUR DAYS, and I was nearly murdered. =.=

No. 5 --> Participated in the Standard Chartered KL Marathon 2010 10km run. A tragic incident happened to a runner, don't want to talk about it. =(

No. 6 --> See the little puppy in the picture? OH MY GOSHHH......where can I get one? =/ Btw, Wei Liang got the SPECS he wanted. =p

No. 7 --> Our Civics Project group has raised a sum of RM1130 for the Sau Seng Lam Dialysis Centre. Contented. =) (spot the noodles in the second pic XD)

No. 8 --> Went to Bon Odori for the first time. No offence, but it was overcrowded and I was bored (~~the whole time~~). At least we bumped into our dear senior - May Fung. Please forgive my candor. ><

No. 9 --> CHS Guides' AGM was held. I cried like a big baby. But no, that was not Au Revoir. They are the ones who were with me throughout my entire ordeal, the ones who beared with my tantrums when I was experiencing a hellish day. =')

No. 10 --> Shu Ling is the most awesome friend I've ever had. She is the one who actually comprehend and understand my quandary without the slightest hint of judgement. I can never thank her enough. ^^

No. 11 --> I named my new Nikon Coolpix cam Brian as he was the one who gave me distinct reviews on different cams. ;)

No. 12 --> I'm going to take up Spanish/French classes after SPM. =D

No. 13 --> SPM is coming, and I endeavor to achieve my goal. All the best to the candidates out there! =D

No. 14 --> After visiting numerous edufairs, I've finally made up my mind, that is I'm going to Inti College for ADP. XD

No. 15 --> It isn't easy living and studying away from home, but I believe that the benefits of doing so far outweigh the disadvantages. I'm looking forward to it, thanks mom and dad! =D

No. 16 --> I miss watching cookie monster and elmo.

No. 17 --> I have a sudden crave for shabu-shabu. Yes, right now. =p

No. 18 --> I'm a milo/movie addict. I know, they're incoherent, who cares?

No. 19 --> I need to learn to be patient and how to compromise, and that's not all about me, but about other people too.

No. 20 --> I hate math/add math, as usual. What's new? LOL!

No. 21 --> Insignificant beginnings don't always result in mediocrity. I will prove it. ;)

No. 22 --> I'm gonna stop at no. 22 because I have a feeling that it's my lucky number today, haha! ;D

牵一只蜗牛去散步

2010-06-05T00:59:00.005+08:00

曾经读过这么一则故事，想跟大家分享。=)

上帝给我一个任务，叫我牵一只蜗牛去散步。我不能走得太快，蜗牛已经尽力爬，为何每次总是那么一点点？我催它，我唬它，我责备它，蜗牛用抱歉的眼神看着我，仿佛说：“人家已经尽力了嘛！”我拉它，我扯它，我甚至想踢它，蜗牛受了伤，它流着汗，喘着气，往前爬。。。。。。真奇怪，为什么上帝叫我牵一只蜗牛去散步？“上帝啊！为什么？”天上一片安静。“唉！也许上帝抓蜗牛去了！”好吧！松手了！反正上帝都不管了，我还管什么？让蜗牛往前爬，我在后面生闷气。咦？我闻到花香，原来这边还有个花园，我感到微风，原来夜里的微风这么温柔。慢着！我听到鸟叫，我听到虫鸣。我看到满天的星斗！咦？我以前怎么没有这般细腻的体会？我忽然想起来了，莫非我错了？

是上帝叫一只蜗牛牵我去散步。

读了之后，你有什么感想？我可是百般思绪涌上心头。=) 生活很多时候都太匆忙了，很多时候都只能走马看花。如果上帝也给我这样一个任务，相信我也会像作者那样，太没趣了。但现在的我跟当初的我已经不一样了。那天考完试后，鼎源问了我，女童军执委几时卸任，我想了想，距离只不过大概一个月多的时间。=/ 时间飞逝，虽然期限还没到，不舍之情却油然而生。

以前的我常常会专心一致，朝着目标勇往直前，过程也不怎么在乎。就这样，我不知该怎样寻求一个平衡点。身边的事，身边的人，都与我擦身而过。因此，我问了自己，这真的是我想要的吗？是不是我太过急着要证明自己了？是该让我做真实的自己，还是该做一个可以取得高分但并不真实的自己呢？答案很明显，我选择了前者。我的生活脚步，节奏，一切都慢下来了。值得庆幸的是，我以前的努力当然也没付诸流水。比如说，有人辛辛苦苦往上爬一架梯子，然而多年以后等他爬到顶端，才发现原来梯子搭错了墙，我并没有。=D 女童军对我来说，是好路，是对路，是一条我从没想过要回头的路。如果需要简单地总结我的中学生涯，女童军似乎就等于我的中学生涯。它让我认识了一班一生一世的好友。而她们让我学会了，不要试图给我的生命增加时间，要向我的时间赋予生命。她们更让我学会了，不要在生活的磨难中放弃梦想，也不要在梦想中忽略现实。

原来，以前的我愚不可及，不过我已经告诉和答应自己，无论做任何事，对任何人，都得从心出发。=) 生命是挣脱蛹壳的碟，瞬间剧痛，瞬间华美。只要坚持，你就可以得到舒展歌喉的权利。;)

卸任之后，我真的会很想念当中的一点一滴的！在无数个黎明、傍晚、深夜，我们被无数泪水洗涤后，都慢慢长大了。

你们一定要继续加油！

一张与纯宁和晓靖的合照，我们在一起考徽章。=)

嘉珏，我和嘉珍。那道彩虹是在我们露营时，下雨后出现的，而刚好那个营的主题是"Time For Miracles"，贴切！你相信奇迹吗？=)

那些曾经被我演绎的过程，是艰难，是开心，都让我换来了千金难求的回忆。

想要开朗地活下去，第一步就是不要漏失小小的幸福与平凡的感动，一项一项地感受它们。如果你发现，你老是在意那些不足或不满的事，内心充满不平与不忿，你不妨叫一只蜗牛牵你去散步。=)

Do Not Pray For An Easy Life

2010-06-02T21:57:00.002+08:00

pray for the strength to endure a difficult one. :)

I'm sick of electromagnetic induction and displacement of halogens, so here i am. :D After i finished studying some of the experiments, i looked up to the ceiling and all kinds of random thoughts just popped out of nowhere (~~as usual~~). :p

When we were nothing but innocent kids, we lived today as today, tomorrow as tomorrow. The most i worried about was that where to hide my mentos, so that lil bro couldn't eat them. =.= Or worse still, i followed mom to supermarket, and when mom only allowed me to choose between koko krunch and honey stars, i cried sitting in the shopping trolley. :p We kept things simple when we were children, but as we grow older, responsibilities grow heavier as well. :( And that is particularly why, i look forward to a glass of iced lemon tea and tiramisu during weekends, HAVE A BREAK! :D

But one thing i've pledged to myself is that, i shouldn't be satisfied with all my little achievements, i have to dream more. :) Although reality can be nasty and challenging at times, the toughest part of it all is that whether we like it or not, we have to accept them. We just have to LET IT BE. Many things are easier said than done. Yes, i know. WHO DOESN'T?? YOU TELL ME.

Apart from that, i figured out that why would i want to live life everyday by grumbling about "stupid desk, why did you knock my hand with your corner?!" or "stupid chilli sauce, why did you fall on my white shirt?!". I know that was kinda abstract, but please try to get me, 'cos idiocy has no cure. :/ Okayyy, my point is that this world is FARRR from being ideal, so you just have to accept certain things as they are. Note to self: so stop wondering why aren't the sky purple or the trees blue. :) It's time for you and i to deal with whatever issues which are upsetting us now. It's time to MAKE DECISIONS. ;)

Btwayyy, i blog because it's therapeutic. As for you, you read my blog, it's likewise good or bad. Take it either way. V^_^

P/S: I try to keep simplicity the way of life by only craving for swiss milk chocolate with honey and almond nougat - toblerone. :)

It Remembers Little Things

2010-06-01T21:03:00.002+08:00

long after you have forgotten everything. =)

Yup, that's what a camera can do. I'm putting up my camera for sale. It's not malfunctioning or whatsoever, it's just that i want to get a new fujifilm polaroid or sony tx5. I bought this baby with RM850, now i'm selling it off for RM400. It became my love on July 2008, so it's only two years old now. :D It's a Kodak EasyShare M883 model, 8.0 megapixels, 3x optical zoom, 3 inches LCD screen. I promise you that it's still perfectly new and performing finely. You can surf the net for its pros and cons, i don't want to be bias here. ;) I've no idea why, but i just fancy compact and polaroid cameras A LOT. LOL! Camera takes an instant out of time, altering life by holding it still, and photos are nothing but the truth. :) I carry my cam to everywhere i go, except school of course, but occasionally i do, haha. :p

Btw, i've never dropped this camera on the floor or banged it on the wall, so no worries, not even one tiny scratch. :D Have a look below. :)

Screen protector is on. ;)

Length: 9cm
Breadth: 5cm
Width: 1.5cm
Mass: 120g

Rechargable battery, battery charger, USB cable and camera case are included. :D

P/S: Price is negotiable. :)

Life Isn't About Waiting For The Storm To Pass

2010-05-23T03:37:00.007+08:00

it's about learning to dance in the rain. ;)

It's actually 2:17am, 29th may right now, ignore the date of this post. Just FOUR more days 'till mid term ends, and OH MY GOSH I'LL BE ON CLOUD NINE. =D But one thing for sure is that, i've screwed my physics paper completely. When i first received the paper, i flipped through the pages and thought, you're kidding me right? Then i started daydreaming, people daydream when they don't know what else to do. I was spewing four letter words silently, like shit, and of course the infamous f-bombs. *HUGE sigh* =( Random thoughts popped out of my mind, like how will Brother John laughs 'till he rolls on floor when he marks my paper, then the radio in his house will be playin' "you're hot and you're cold, you're yes and you're no", 'cos it's related to the chapter "heat" somehow. == Or worse still, i thought of how great will it be, if i can be like carrie underwood, singing "undo it" and totally rock the american idol finale's stage. Or backpacking around the world, camwhoring with every single statue that i find in greece. Come on, when there's muse, there's daydream, ermmmm......., i mean dream. =)

Okayy, i should stop wandering off the point, my point is that, I MYSELF DON'T KNOW WHAT ON EARTH AM I DOING IN PURE SCIENCE STREAM. == After two tormenting years in science class, biology tells me where babies come from, physics tells me not to idiotically jump into a pool, 'cos it's not as shallow as it seems, and chemistry tells me moles are not those 3D black spots on your face. My intention of entering science class in the first place was simply because i wasn't sure of my future career choice. Now i'm absolutely sure that finance and banking is my choice, i feel bloody empty. == I have nothing against science class, i'm taking accounts anyway. It's just that i really hate to be constrained by unattainable expectations, bounded by stereotypical mind set kind of feeling. When you give up Faraday's Law for Cecelia Ahern, you know that it's impossible to cram all the facts, which seem more like ultimate bullshit to you, it will be a waste of time and effort in the end. Like COMPLETELY.

But fortunately, these two years have been phenomenal, with the presence of a bunch of crazy people, namely FRIENDS. =D When all i know was some archimedes guy invented something when he was bathing in a bath tub or so, i called up yu song, and he agreed to help me without a doubt. Or when i nearly tore up those differentiation exercises, alicia was there to make sure that i didn't concede defeat. When win yen spent her precious hours answering my stupidly funny questions about the chapter "straight line", i know who wants the best for me. Not to forget shu ling, meeting her was like the turning point of my life. She's the most happy-go-lucky and patient person you will ever meet! She said and i quote: determination gives me the resolve to keep going in spite of the roadblocks that lay before me. =) Oh and kai xiang, who can be the lamest person on earth and has never ffk on me, NOT EVEN ONCE. =D I think i've broken out of my comfort zone after bearing the responsibility as an unit leader, working together with your best friends suck, A LOT. FRIENDSHIP hasn't been the easiest thing to keep, we've had arguments and quarrels more than ever. But all in all, i know very well that when i fall, they will be there to catch me. There are ups just like there are downs, those setbacks are nothing horr ZHEN JUE VIAN? =DD

Well, apart from friends, family matters the most of course. =) 'Cos you know deep down that no matter how hurtful and wounding you are when tempers flare, you will be forgiven. And that feeling is like SUPERMAN BATMAN SPIDERMAN AWESOME. =DD I grew up together with barney and big bird, i still recall that i was fascinated by count dracula and cookie monster, AND ELMO, thanks to mommy, haha! My mom is like terrifically cool. She went to USA ALONE in the 80s, just to make a living for the family. Look at her 70s specs in the photo below, LOL! But she actually owns a pair of kanye west shades now. XD She's that very one person who will believe me if i tell her that i heard cows barking at nite, or i saw slimy aliens playing with swings at the playground. Like seriously. LOL!

Popo and mommy raised me up with selfless love. =')

Friends - simple yet sophisticated.

Needless to say much, you know i love you guys. =)

他。她。它

2010-05-18T18:24:00.003+08:00

在她的眼中，人生在世都应该讲法则，守定律。她是一位十七岁少女，喜欢在窗前托腮凝思的少女。她，是她爸爸妈妈的女儿，是她哥哥姐姐的妹妹，十七年来，都有这些人在守护她。她的生活，不算不平凡，不算平凡，不算色彩斑斓，不算暗淡无光。她时常怀抱一个信念取暖，就是她可以在未来的天空下高喊美梦成真。她的梦呢？在远方，在视野里。有时候，她很累很累，但依然往前奋飞，因为梦又赐给她另一双翅膀。她喜欢在风中奔跑，她在想，她是想做一朵云的诗，还是做一只蝶的画？她是想做一只鹰，向往辽阔的天空，还是想做一条河，向往深邃的大海？她不知道。

他，对她一见钟情。他，不是他爸爸妈妈的儿子，而是他爸爸妈妈和继母的儿子。他，也不是他哥哥姐姐的弟弟，而是他妹妹的哥哥。他遇上了她之后，尝试把她带出过于规律的生活，她也很想放纵自己一次，因为她厌倦了做人家眼中的她。她一直认为自己是一个很理性的人，可是当她遇见爱情时，她似乎失去了应有的理智。他，是她的初恋。她不需要勇气去成就她的爱情，而是爱情给了她想要的勇气。他不时会给她惊喜，她珍惜每一份感动。她生病时，她感到他的不放心，她失落时，她期待他的拥抱，她高兴时，她期待与他分享。他们俩都知道，真诚的关爱，装不出来的。他不擅于用言笑表达自己，但是他的人无微不至，她常常可以从很多小细节上感受到每一份真心的关怀。美中不足的是，她不能全心全意地去爱他。她不能把他放在第一位，她心中的第一第二位一直都是家人与朋友。因为父母比他多爱她十七年，朋友在风雨中与她笑对人生。在她迷茫的心里，爱他的空间似乎太少，太少了。

它，是他们俩五岁的距离，是他们俩想要各自追逐的梦，是他们俩之间不足的信任。他，牵着她的手对她说，他不会放弃她。可是她，脑子里很空白，为了它，放弃了他。她的决定，对他来说有如晴天霹雳，她听见了他心碎的声音。她在他身旁，眼前是一幕幕他们俩在短短半年里度过的甜蜜时光，她的心，一样在淌泪。他们一起手牵手走过的日子，他和她都选择了不忘记。她的肩上有太多包袱，她卸不下的包袱。她没有心理准备让他完全走进她的世界里，所以她自私地做出了抉择。她每晚都会对着星星许愿，希望每天日出日落之后，他的心灵已经痊愈，可以微笑期待每一天。他们俩的爱，来得太早。她知道他还想她，她也一样。可是，现实的她不容许自己再一次失去理智，盲目地去接受她无法回报的爱。

他，她，和它的故事，我需要在乎吗？
不需要吧。你也一样，别想太多。=)

I'm Alive With Adrenaline

2010-05-15T22:51:00.010+08:00

when it comes to BADMINTON! =DD

14th May 2010, it was a night where all malaysians gather, it was the much awaited china-malaysia thomas cup semi finals derby which determines the fate of both countries. Yes, malaysia was kinda like the underdog obviously, but who cares, i'm still proud to be a malaysian. =)

The best of malaysia couldn't come close to the might of defending champions china, despite that, badminton is something that unite malaysians. I can see that from fully occupied mamak stalls, strangers screaming their lungs out and high-fiving each other in victory (i was one of them) =p. Eventhough our players collapsed in all the matches yesterday, they've put up great games, and i believe that all of us (at least most of us) were touched by some of those awesome moments. ;)

The duel between lee chong wei and lin dan started off with not much of a blast, although i was so certain that i should have studied, my eyes were glued to the idiot box a.k.a television whenever a badminton tournament is up, i just couldn't possibly let the opportunity slip even i had to face exam the next day or whatsoever. As soon as we lost in the first two crucial matches, i couldn't help but decided that luck wasn't on their side. At that very moment, i can only describe my feeling as numb. Disappointed. But still hopeful. I was wishing, deep down in my heart, that malaysia was to be given a glimmer of hope, like WONG CHOONG HANN PLEEEAAASSSEEE (we need more emerging talented players). =/ Well, it didn't work out, obviously. Our players' performance was good, but they were just not good enough! The game was mostly dominated by the enemy. =(

Lets jump to the conclusion, my point is that if you are to offer me two free tickets, between jay chou concert and badminton game with malaysia's player(s), no doubt that i'll grab the badminton one. =D Yesterday's match was on the run......and running real havoc......at a rate that attracted so many to putra stadium......kids, chicks, ah bengs, aunties, ah pohs, uncles, ah guas, all turned up just to support malaysia! Did you feel the ohm? =D The crowd turned gloomy as all the matches were so demoralising, and apparently our players didn't have strong mental strength to overcome the frustration. Sigh. =/

But but but but, no, it doesn't matter. I still love our players very very very muchhhh. =) ESPECIALLY LEE CHONG WEI. XD One day, one day we'll be so hysterical, so joyous, it will be so damn unbelievable to see history made in front of our eyes, it will be a moment to savour. Malaysian teammates celebratory mood will move me to tears, and indeed it will be a little shame to see the enemy lost after putting up such a good fight. No, that's not just a dream, it's a dream that we can all reach. JUST BELIEVE. =')

你颈上挂着一枚许多人梦寐以求的银牌，你站在奥林匹克运动会的奖台上，一个被全世界肯定的体育界舞台。虽然你夺得的是马来西亚有史以来第一枚男单银牌，可是你脸上挂着的是一丝牵强的笑容，面对媒体与镜头的笑容。那足以证明你内心的挫败，愧疚及失望。无所谓，在大马人民心目中，你已经稳了一席无人能取代的位子，你永远是大马的骄傲！=D

P/S: Great sportsmanship fu hai feng, cai yun and chen jin have there. =) Didn't you just feel like slapping lin dan? 'Cos i did, in fact i thought he should had tasted a size 5, or 6, from me. =) FYL MAN.

I Am 17 Going On 18

2010-05-11T23:24:00.008+08:00

I was the most manja kid you could ever imagine, but i've grown up now lar. XD

Tried to act cute? LOL.
I feel like cubit-ing my own face looking at this picture. Haha!

Birthday present from Xin Ying....my mom named it twinkle...hehe...=p Cute or not? =)

HELLOOO PEOPLE! I'm alive! Hehe......XD, people around me have been complaining that my blog is dead, but I hereby promise you people, NO! IT DOESN'T END HERE. =D

Sooo, let me start with the very awesome 33rd west seremban scout troop campfire, it was totally worth attending, who's with me? ;) Both scouts and guides from chs have had a perfect scream-our-lungs-out weekend.....shhhhh......XD

SMJK Chan Wa was my dad's high school! It hasn't changed much i think, lol.

Ching Yeap looked very QQ in both pics. HAHA! =p

And now, let me continue with my birthday post. =) I celebrated my birthday together with mother's day, and there were the usual stuffs such as an expensive dinner, my favourite cake, the birthday song etc. Nothing special really, and i don't feel like 17 at all! Too bad i still can't watch Ip Man 2 legally, fyi, i'm a movie maniac and ALWAYS WILL BE. V^_^ Btw, i passed undang with flying colours.....*er herm*.....48/50. =D BIG DEAL RIGHT. XD

Me with the 寿桃包. =) If you are to look for a word to describe me, the best would be TANNED. In fact, TERRIBLY TANNED. There was this series of outdoor events which caused this....=(((.

Family members wouldn't ask me to pick up the candles by my mouth....haha. =p

This was the second year that i celebrated birthday without grandma, i miss her so much can die. =( My family visited her at nilai memorial park during 清明节. =) We brought all her favourites such as "yau char guai", "ham jin beng", kopi-o etc. =D

Burning all the gold or silver paper money and stuffs.

Besides that, i would like to thank ALL MY AWESOME DARLINGS, FRIENDS, CLASSMATES, SENIORS AND JUNIORS who have made my day! I had a blast, i thank you all A LOT, from the bottom of my heart, i LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH CAN DIE KAYYY. =)

Without this bunch of awesome guides, especially rangers, i wouldn't have survived all the ups and downs. *peace* =) We shall get HIGH HIGH HIGH together in the upcoming kalumpang camp alrite? =D It's gonna be our VERY LAST CAMP as rangers, so let's have all the fun under the sun and in the rain. *group hug*!

Another bunch of awesome people! UNGUUUU! I will never ever forget those good times that i've had with you guys, our spirit never dies! Ungu rocksssssss! =DD Although we didn't win in the perbarisan and perkhemahan categories this year, WE FOREVER AND ALWAYS WILL BE (number) ONE. =) Simply because everyone who put in a gallant effort to make great things happen is a winner. ;)

Not to forget the five-somes in 5S9, i actually uploaded the wrong picture, LOL! I was supposed to upload our 5S9 class photo, but nevermind lar, this is equally awesome to me. =p We've shared special relationship between the five of us, and we will never lose it. BEST FRIENDS FOREVER, and i truly mean it. =D

ALICIAAA! She's that very one person who knows me more than I do, i tell her EVERY SINGLE THING. We've been best friends for 11 years! Beat that! Thank you for the present, i love it a lot! They're all my favourites. =) But then later i get fat how....=p....Although we've had numerous arguments over redundant stuffs, you'll still be the one i tell secrets to, XD and i promise you that i'll always stay true to myself. =)

Also, JIA ZHEN, you're the best secretary i could ever wish for, love you lots! All those memorable sleepovers and cookie-making days, is one of the best parts of my life. ;)

JIA JUE, your "love letter" made me teared lorrr! Evil you, hmph. =p But seriously hor, very gam dong marr, haha. We've been through wonderful times together, no one can ever take away that from us. Sorry for all those hurtful things that i've said to you before, we shall happily forget and forgive alrite? Love you lots too! =)

VI-VIAN, thank you so much for your time and effort, that card is really impressive, i LOVEEE it. We're that kind of friends who call each other fan cheong all the time, and overslept then being late for something kind of babi hutans. =p BUT WE LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH RIGHT. ^^

Since i've neglected my blog for so long, obviously there are still a lot of happenings that i missed out, sorry people. =/ But no worries lar, i won't disappear from this lovely pink earth. ;)

Presents i've received so far:

Thank you all. =)

Maybe, Someday

2010-03-31T19:21:00.004+08:00

I'm an average girl,
and sometimes I wish I could be more than that,
to exceed excellence.

As the days seem to go on endlessly,
I await the "someday" I've always been promised.
That "someday" when things are supposed to be perfect,
the "someday" when I find my place in this unforgiving world.

Life's a journey, not a destination.
Live life, love life. =)

Off With Her Head!

2010-03-25T17:39:00.007+08:00

Surprised? I.am.actually.updating.my.blog. WHAT ON EARTH......WHAT ON THIS PURPLE EARTH MAN. == For the reason that i've been busy with exams, assignments, guides......and so on, i've neglected my blog. BUT I'M BACK AT THE MOMENT. =) Updating my blog requires me to sit down in front of the laptop, and write my usual long carefully thought out entries. I simply didn't have the time. I've come to a conclusion that it is practically impossible for me to update as regularly as i did. Despite the fact that i don't even have the time to spend with my bed at home, i've been updating facebook quite frequently, since they're just short spontaneous thoughts published. ;) Soooo......i've went to a few sessions of first term exam seminars held in sunway university college, kindly supported by TTC. =)

The peace sign lover, guess who is it? XD

In passing, i've snapped two happy-papa shots in two different occasions. =D PAPA LOOKED REALLY HAPPY LORRR. NO JOKE. LOL! XD

Snap shot 1.

Snap shot 2.

Who took the pictures? *waves vigorously* ME ME ME! =D *pro candid photographer wannabe......er herm*

And now, the major event ------ CHS' FIRST EVER KEM PERDANA, which was a joint camp for all six uniform bodies. ABSOLUTELY AWESOME TO THE MAXXX. =D The awesome-st part of the camp was when all of us shouted YAAAAAAAAAM SENG like nobody's business, so chun can die. =)

Guides participants on the bus. ;) AND WHO ELSE WOULD HAVE CAPTURED THE PHOTO WITH MY FACE HALF COVERED......

......other than the peace sign lover. ==

Annndddd I WAS DAMN INNOCENT TO HAVE CREATED THE AWFUL 蓝毛 INCIDENT. == Kem perdana people would know. LOL!!! GOSH! I captured this pic by the cashier in carrefour. XD

UKH had a visit to Cilantro Culinary Academy the other day. We had fun i guess. =) At least i know how to cook SPAGHETTI BOLOGNAISE now...haha. =p

The recipe. =)

Before i end this post, here is a damn retarded picture of me faking an act for moral project...==...zhen volunteered to be my kelehfeh some more. LOL!!! Oh my goodness...this picture is SO UNCONVINCING. == Screw moral projects larrr....

Not to forget about movies which i've watched over the past few weeks.

"Alice In Wonderland". Two thumbs up! =D I looovveee Johnny Depp. I SWEAR TO GOD THAT YOU CANNOT IMAGINE HOW MANY TIMES I'VE WATCHED CHARLIE IN THE CHOCOLATE FACTORY. XD I love his eccentric personality, i love his futterwacken dance, i love his magnificent hats, I JUST LOVE IT. =) Also, the evil queen of hearts who put her legs on the poor piggy's belly!!!

Accompanied mom to watch "Confucius" as well. If you're the type of person who likes principles like 学而不思则罔，思而不学则殆 , then you'll definitely enjoy the show. It was okay for me, quite well expressed. =)

Resolution of the day: Smile through everything even the tough times, 'cos frowning might give me a distorted face. =)

Attending majlis pandu puteri renjer in smk seksyen 7 tomorrow.

So long people!

I Still Need Stars When I'm Wishing At Night

2010-03-01T14:41:00.003+08:00

I need someone to lift me up.
I need someone to turn the ashes into flames.
There are times, when sorry just doesn't cut it.

I have not been happy, for real.
I'm not smiling as this clock is ticking down to......everything.
When's the next roller coaster ride? I need a ride up, not two consecutive rides down.

But I'm not gonna let myself to feel this emotional.
I'm not gonna let myself to get sucked into this little comfort zone of mine, where I allow myself to tear silently.
Not today. Today, I wanna be bravely happy.

Don't judge me tomorrow by the way I'm acting today.
When was the last time I stayed true to myself?
Not today.

What's done cannot be undone.
So why cry twice?

*fake a smile* =)

World Thinking Day 2010

2010-02-23T18:17:00.010+08:00

To save you questions, 22nd february is marked a special day on the calender of every scout and guide, where it is this day that scouts and guides from different countries pledge to be friends and to understand each other. I wished every scout and guide Happy Founder's Day and Happy Thinking Day, but yet i was not.

The flag raising ceremony was awful. I felt a million things while i witnessed the whole incident, and i do mean a million things. No matter how embarassed i felt, i tried really hard to get over it, as there was still a long day to go. As you would have thought, people from around came forward and asked what happened.....i uttered the same explanation to each and everyone of them, until i was tired. Pressure and stress add up to my fatigue. At that point in time, i broke down. I just, did. It was just a few drops of tear anyway. And so i told everyone that i was yawning, it just made my eyes watery, i don't know why. =)

Giving speech was somehow, fun. =) Omg....ching yeap is so much more taller than me...LOL.

Why must those objects block my face? LOL.

This was during afternoon session assembly.

I went back to class after i finished the set up of exhibition booth. Just when i thought, phew, i can finally have a break. Still, i can't. LQ.FTMZ said something tremendously disrespectful and hurtful to me.....i.e. "i must ask JQR to give you flag raising course already"......*stunned*. Then when i walked out of class to standby for afternoon session assembly, again, he mumbled something spiteful to the class....i.e. "摘不到葡萄就说葡萄酸"....he said something like this in english. The precise meaning. I didn't even feel like defending myself, as i know very well that words can make a deeper scar than silence can heal. Also, i know another thing for sure, if words may show a man's wit, HE IS WORSE THAN A DUMB BLONDE. No offence, but i was really upset. ='(

The difference in judgement. The difference in experience. The difference in thoughts. One thing is the same: they only want to do you good. At the end of the day, it all boils down to your focus, OUR VERY OWN PERSPECTIVES. =) I'm gonna turn over a new leaf. ;)

It was one of those days, where you just wished so hard that you were somewhere, anywhere else in the world. =/ Even though i was humiliated, looking at the bright side: whenever i face awkward moments next time, i'll just say "HAH! I'VE HAD WORSE!". =D Everything is so yesterday now, lessons learned are to be treasured. =)

- make.believe - ;)

Of Pineapple Tarts And Kickapoo

2010-02-21T15:40:00.021+08:00

OH MY GOD, can you believe it? I haven't been updating my blog for like almost a month. 'Cos i can't. ==

But anyway, here i am. KONNICHIWA! =D First of all, i would like to greet everyone 新年快乐! =) Still sempat lar right. ;) I don't know where should i start with.....=/ Oh....kay....i'll just start with 年三十晚. Some 堂s and 表s, i mean cousins, came over to have the very splendid reunion dinner. MY DAD IS A GREAT COOK FYI! XD　

Celebrated the kids' birthdays together as well. And yeeessss.....i was wearing BABY MILO AGAIN. =D Can you spot the jelly cake? Nothing but delicious. =p I'm bored with the normal cakes already. ==

Btw, elvis is here to say 恭喜发财! =D I call him FURRY BALL nowadays. =)

Guides celebrated Ms. Margaret's birthday on the day right before CNY holidays started. I planned so hard for the surprise weih....and telling lies were never easy...luckily everything went on smoothly. Teacher really thought that we were having a meeting...LOL! XD Thanks to everyone who contributed! =D Btw, i know what you must be thinking looking at the picture, just so you know, teachers can have not so serious times also kan? Haha!

Okay, back to CNY. That's Tan Sri Michael Chen in the picture, a close family friend of ours. Went to his open house on 正月初一，and that was the time when ang pows started rolling in. Hehe....XD

Our families are close because we're all 广西人. =D People with my surname 覃, which should be pronounced as QIN 第二声, not TAN 第二声, are mostly 广西人. I have 苗族 bloodline. =)

Lion dance! I love love love chinese cultures, this is one of my favourites. ;)

Watched "七十二家租客" on 年初二 with my family, it's a movie worth watching. All of us had great monday night laughs. =D

Cute mandarin oranges, haha.

Did some family portrait photoshoot during CNY week...too bad it was without grandma. =(

We visited 姑妈 on 年初二. Also, i love love love family gathering like this. =) Kueh-kah-pek and 炸芽菇 are my favourites during CNY, i can eat non stop like nobody's business. XD

And and and MAHJONG! I need kakissssss....LOL! Went to aunty siew ling's house on 年初三 for this, haha! It's definitely not something bad lor, in fact every chinese should know how to play, as long as you don't get addicted to gambling. =)

Watched "The Wolfman" on 年初四. The show was quite violent actually. When i was buying the tickets, that gsc guy scrutinized me, looked at me suspiciously and asked me "how old are you", i answered "18", without any second thought, LOL. But my heart was mumbling something like "shit, please believe me...*, LOL.

Then i began with my house hopping adventure! =D I visited zhen and jue's house on 年初五, didn't take any pictures though. =/

I was at wei liang's and kai xiang's house on 年初六. Played poker, gin rami and blackjack. My luck-o-meter dumped me that day, I LOST RM 25 TO KAI XIANG. ='(

Movin' on, i went to yu song's house on 年初七. Guess what, we sang happy birthday song to each other, haha! It was everyone's birthday what....=p We walked to tropicana city mall for the movie "Little Big Soldier". LEE HOMMMMMM!!!!!! *swoons* SERIOUSLY, HE'S SO AMAZING CAN DIE. =D

Then it was 5S9's class CNY gathering at my place. The 5S3-ian followed me home and joined the fun, or more like being my helper, LOL! Did you guys have diarrhoea after eating the watermelons? XD We were like a bunch of idiots and morons when it comes to cutting watermelons. == CITY BOYS AND GIRLS MARR, or what would i usually do is that "KAKAK! saya mahu makan tembikai* ....hehe...XD Wei Jian was photographer of the day, snapping photos all night long with his grand DSLR, i'll get the photos from him later. =) Also, chun yeen from S3 and mun chung from S8 joined us for 捞生 later on, semangatnya kami ni. On the other hand, i need to thank win yen, alicia and yu song a lot a lot for helping me out, THE CLEANING UP PART. =D AWESOME LAR YOU GUYS. ;)

Here comes the very very very sad love story. Diing Yienn brought his female guinea pig - shutiu (french fries in cantonese) to my place, then we put shutiu and elvis together. ELVIS FELL IN LOVE WITH HER IMMEDIATELY, but then we had to separate them not long after.....and that was elvis' 3 minutes love story. ='( His squeaking sound was SOOO LOUD when we separated them. Sorrrryyyyy elvisssssss.....='( HEART BROKEN GUINEA PIG.....*breathe in deeply*

That's all for now!

Oyasuminasai!

Sayonara! =)

U-N-G-U......UNGU!!!

2010-02-07T14:19:00.009+08:00

Don't you just love ecstatic moments of delight? 'Cos i do, i do and i do! I wasn't aiming anything at all in this year's cross country event, but who knows, expect the unexpected. ;) Things like people got disqualified because of certain reasons, or some don't even know why they got disqualified, happens every year, *huge sigh*....=/ Everyone hates these unforeseen circumstances, but be it happy or sad, for those who didn't get what you deserve, WE KNOW YOU DID WELL, VERY WELL INDEED. =D Of course it takes time to let go, but bear in mind that WE WILL ALWAYS ACKNOWLEDGE YOU AS THE TRUE WINNER. =) Cheer up kay? ;) I never liked running actually, although i do love sports like swimming, badminton, ping pong, tennis etc. Just not track and field, it's not my thing, haha. But somehow, i fell in love with running this year, it releases all my stress, and when lyrics like "when all you got to keep is strong, move along, move along like i know ya do, and even when your hope is gone, move along, move along just to make it through" are playing in mind, I FEEL SOOOO GOOD! Woohoo! I've never participated in any cross country events before, simply because it wasn't held when i was in form 1, then i had duties when i was in form 2, 3, and 4. So this was my FIRST and FINAL chance to get myself involved in the race, fight till' the end. =)

I felt kinda embarassed actually, LOL.

But happy at the same time, haha. =p

My juniors were cheering for me along the road, thank you so muuuccchhh! I love you guys. =) Also, thanks to many team mates who cheered for me as well. When i fell down, i was like OH MY GOD.......==. But it's always MIND OVER MATTER, don't shed a tear, get up, move on. AND I REALLY DID IT! =D And of course, a big thank you to all bsmm members who helped me out, and not to forget TIAN YOON! She cared for me A LOT, i truly appreciate that. =) Last but not least, thank you to all my friends and teachers who came forward and asked how was i doing, thank you lots!

This piece of medal stands for a whole lot more than the 16th placing. ;)

My left thigh......=/

My right knee......I'M SO AFRAID OF BATH TIME right now, i went like "OUUUUCCCCHHHHHH" when the water kena my wound, oh gosh. == For purple house, it's all worth it. =)

Other houses have done their very best as well, our semangat never dies. =D Feel the ohm!

这一种加油，人人都需要。;)

A New Day Has Come

2010-01-31T22:16:00.016+08:00

I've been pretty much a lazy blogger lately, forgive me pwwweaasse. =p Fyi, i'm sooo addicted to pool ball right now, and so zhen, jue, vian and i went to sean's house on last last saturday, just for the game, haha. =D

Then it was grandma's 1st year death anniversary on tuesday, my family performed some rituals at pj guan yin ting. In the blink of an eye, grandma has left us for one year already, *stares into mid air*, unbelievable. O.O

蓦然回首，这一切似乎是在昨天发生的，时间的飞逝意味着许多东西，但也让我不禁感慨不已。我们与婆婆阴阳相隔了整整一年，这段说长不长，说短不短的过渡期，我总算挨了过去。那份亲情，不是挥手就能告别的。所幸的是，一路走来有家人与朋友给予的勇气和坚持，我才能在一时的悲痛和泪水过后，体验人生另一阶段的新生活。谢谢你们。=)

Did these collections of mcdonalds hello kitty soft toys ring a bell? They were incredibly popular at some time ago. ;) Grandma queued up for me early in the morning at old town mcdonalds, the line extended until far away from the outlet, she knows i adooorrre hello kitty so much. =)

But for now, i adore BABY MILO mooorrreee. =D

Yellow chrysanthemum for grandma. =)

White and purple ones as well. ;)

Alright, let's move on. It was alicia's 17th birthday on last saturday, which was also thaipusam, haha. =p I remember when it was my birthday last year, one of my best friends told me, she'll not wish me specially on my birthday, 'cos she is wishing me 356 days. Awwww, *hugs* shu ling! Same goes to you alicia! =D Tough times never last, but tough people do! And you taught me how to be one. =) Happy 10th year anniversary my dear, *cheers* to our friendship! ;)

Belanja her lunch at sushi king in mid valley.

Peeaaacceeee. =D Dumbo you rock, LOL. =p

I love love love mid valley's cny decorations!

Went for a couple of bowling games after lunch. The noob and the boon is erm....me....if they aren't obvious enough to you. == Spot the WINNER....HAHAHAHAHA, that's the awesome DUMBO. LOL, no offence lar, but all of us couldn't stop laughing. XD Kai Xiang said the most awesome thing that day. He said and i quote: Jue is very......(we were expecting him to say bad or something like that)....CONSISTENT. == Just suddenly feel like pulling jue's cheeks, hehe. XD

Watched "The Spy Next Door" after that. The movie was....erm....predictable. Nothing special. But funny in a way.

The two pictures below are totally irrelavant or incoherent to the current post. Just absolute randomness. =)

My 2nd sis and eldest bro....cute not? HAHA. XD

Love them lots. =)

Time heals all wounds, unless you pick at them. Thank you guys, i feel much much more better now. =) No worries kay? ;)

Bye!

It Was Never Meant To End This Way

2010-01-24T11:19:00.006+08:00

Or should I say, we were never meant to be together. Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts. ='(

In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing.

Letting go.

Holding on.

Two words which are effortlessly said, frequently heard,

However, do we really know what it takes to do both?

In this case, I don't. But holding on to someone who doesn't want to be held on to is foolish. So I'm letting go. I won't think of how to resolve, I won't seek God for the answer, I won't weigh the pros and cons. I'll just shut up, concentrate, move on.

P/S: Sgzmj Xnt Zkhbhz, Vhm Xdm, Xt Rnmf, zmc Uhuhzm. H knud xnt ftxr. Asv, svn hr mns adssdq sgzm nmd. =)

没想到，你竟然会是令我睡了一觉醒来之后，依然觉得隐隐刺痛和难受的人。爱情从来就是一种被人抛得高高，享受无限风情之后，再狠狠地被砸下来的一种暴力。我怎么会上当？笑话。

Another Day, Another Cupcake

2010-01-18T21:50:00.017+08:00

^_^V

I've totally forgotten when these incidents happened, so be it. =)

My house went blackout on the other day, so my family had our cosy CANDLELIGHT DINNER together, AWESOMENESS. Haha!

I bumped into hui teng while having lunch in chilli padi at kuchai lama, we definitely need some serious catch ups right? ;)

It was my very very best buddy - win yen's 17th birthday on the 14th of january, had this movie date with her and chun kit, we were laughing hysterically throughout the movie, LOL. =D I have sore throat after i got home. ==

Annndddd it was hari gerko on friday, i'm TREMENDOUSLY disappointed with the number of recruits whom we have recruited. ='(

Then it was our welcoming party for new recruits on saturday, pingu happily speaking. =p

Dumbo cheerfully dancing, LOL. =p

I have never seen such a big horseshoe like this in like A THOUSAND YEARS already, was quite glad that day. =) Ignore the date stamp, vian's camera cacat-ed, lol.

Watched "Ju-on: White Ghost and Black Ghost" after that. We were laughing THE WHOLE TIME, as if we were watching some kind of comedy, watch it for your own entertainment. =p Btw, when i was buying the tickets, the sales assistant guy said "make sure there's no one under 18 following you for this movie", i nodded. Then i helped sean to buy tickets for "Bodyguards and Assassins", another 18SG movie, the guy at the counter said the same thing, i nodded, again. But in fact i was giggling inside my heart, haha. =p

Yumcha session with yu song, alicia, and vian at dunkin donuts after the movie. We met this uncle here, who made acquaintance with us in just a few minutes, he even made these balloons for each of us, how nice. =)

He seems like a person to have experienced all walks of life, he taught us the real meaning of this sentence above. 有意思。=)

Oh ya, forgot to mention that jue, zhen, vian, sean, chia feng, eu chin and i went for pool game after hari gerko. It was my first time playing, got so addicted to the game lar! When's the next one? Jom! =D

Sean arranging the pool balls. Solids and stripes kan? =D

Pingu practising. =)

Well, that's pretty much what i have been up to lately, and of course my everyday routine - schooling and guiding, i enjoy them. =)

Lazy to elaborate much, ciaoz. ;)

矛盾之美

2010-01-13T23:03:00.004+08:00

这个世界其实很简单，只是人心很复杂。
人，
一简单就快乐，
但快乐的人寥寥无几；
一复杂就痛苦，
可痛苦的人却熙熙攘攘。
实际上，
许多的人，
要活出简单来不容易，
要活出复杂来却很简单。

人生，
追根究底，
简单得只有生死两个字，
但由于有了命运的沉浮，
有了人生的冷暖，
简单的过程才变得纷繁复杂。

简单，
是生命留给这个世界美丽的形式；
而复杂，
是生命永远无法打捞的苍凉梦境。

人世间，
愁苦和畏惧多了，欢乐与勇气就少了；
局促和紧张多了，潇洒于轻松就少了；
傲慢和骄矜多了，恭谨与谦虚就少了。
因此，
学会接受人生本身之不完美是必须的。=)

希望从今以后，
你、我、他，
都能做个正常的傻瓜，
为自己生命的原汁干杯！=D

Underage

2010-01-03T19:44:00.012+08:00

It was my last day of work on the 2nd of january, kinda miss it now though, lol. I've certainly gained a lot of experience through this. =) Some people are real idiots do you know that? I remember there was this guy who talked to me with VERY rude manners, he said, "why didn't you people stick the price tag on? *pointed to the ice age 3 limited edition gift set*", then i replied him nicely (i HAD to) and showed him the damn price tag, but in fact i was cursing him in my heart, haha. =p There was this tourist who made me damn mm song as well, he insisted on testing the dvd he bought, but i didn't have any authority to allow that, and so i reassured him that he can come back and change the dvd IF there really is anything wrong with it, in two weeks time and with the receipt of course. Again, he talked to me with EXTRAORDINARILY rude manners, he said, "佄飞机票系卖你帮我俾先?", i was like o.0!!!! I felt like showing him the mm song look already, but patience, marissa, patience. What's more, there're really lots lots lots of weird people out there, or in other words, everyone is just out of the ordinary in their own ways, and so learning how to deal with them is definitely the hard part.

Thank you movie magic.....heeeee.......XD (ignore my thumb there pls) =p

DUMBO!!!! I was missing you every minute every second while working there, see, PROOF. XD Dumbo = oh jia jue (who is afraid of she might get caught 'cos her hair touches the collar if she just let it down but can't tie up as well 'cos it's not long enough, the rubber band will "fly off" like how she described it, cute not?)

Excuse my cacat-ed phone camera again, *er herm...clears throat*. I'll miss people who stood in front of the tv and watching shows like nobody's business, for example the one in the picture, who watched until his mouth wide opened, LOL. No offence...=/. Also, there was this guy who approached me and said something INCREDIBLY rude, that is "你看到这么多人在看着，你就让他们看咯，不能说拿着remote control出来就按掉的嘛，这是基本的礼貌对不对。" My heart was mumbling something like "ey mister! we set repeat chapter playback type for every dvd we're showing wan okay! if u wanna watch then come in and buy lar! u think we show everybody for free ah? wth!", yea, seriously. ==

I worked in morning shift on saturday, and so i went home at around 8pm. I went to reggae bar (located at changkat, bkt bintang) together with mom, eldest bro, eldest sis and 2nd sis at around 11.30pm. It was my first time heading down to a club. We got all sweaty dancing, damn syok! Woohoo!

I didn't have any liquor, simply coca cola, HAHA. =p

Eldest bro. =)

Eldest sis. =)

2nd sis. =)

(Everybody in the club!) Oh, oh, evacuate the dancefloor; Oh, oh, I'm infected by the sound (Everybody in the club!) Oh, oh, stop, this beat is killing me; Hey Mister DJ come on and burn this place right down to the ground.

Headed to pappa rich for yumcha session at around 3am. I just wanna emphasize on how the "INGENIOUS" them spelled the word "coming"....yea rite...."comming"....LOL! Every single sticker you know......==

Just one last crazy outing before school starts, i'm lovin it. ;)

~~Clubbing anyone?~~ =p

Adios 2009, Hola 2010!

2009-12-31T23:12:00.015+08:00

A movie maniac like me can never stop blogging 'bout movies, yea. =p

Watched midnight show "sherlock holmes", i like it. =) The part where he can be extraordinarily observant was impressive, not dull, just simply interesting.

Watched midnight show "alvin and the chipmunks 2" as well, the chipettes were soooo cute! It's a just for laughs movie, nothing unique i guess.

Since it was christmas day, chs guides had a visit to rumah hope. =)

We brought a lot of useful stuffs for them, were just thinking of bringing some warmth to the home in this season of giving. We took lrt to taman paramount station, then walked all the way there.

The things we brought, we also baked cookies and fruit cakes for them. =) We couldn't really get along with those kids at first, the awkwardness was making everybody feeling uncomfortable. But not long after, we seemed to get closer, but too bad we had to leave. =/

I miss the fat kid, he's cute, LOL. We were playing this game called "ji gu bak", or whatever you call that lar, primary school favourites, haha. ;)

Next was the long awaited 6K gathering! Woohoo! We never felt like strangers although some of us haven't seen each other for some time, the bond between us is INSEPARABLE. =D

CHERYL!!!! I felt ECSTATIC when i met her, it's been a long time buddy! We haven't seen each other for FOUR YEARS, but once we met, we were like some kind of best friends who see each other everyday, no boundaries between us buddy, FRIENDS FOREVER, promise. =)

We had our lunch in kim gary at sunway pyramid. Since i was working, i eat so often at mcd or oasis food court, if you ajak me to mcd or something next time, i will throw up on you, bear in mind. =p

We went to redbox later on, what else? LOL. Brenda, me, and mei kuan. All chs-ians lar, haha.

pui li, me and pamela.

~~me and pui mun~~ pui mun and i......XD

shuet wah and i

excuse my cacat-ed phone camera....XD

me, wei liang and alicia, JI MUI for life. =D yes, including wei liang, or rather 赖小丽, the very awesome name i gave him after he lost in a bet, HAHA.

vian, me, yong jie, alicia, brenda and wen shin.

wen shin and i.

Now the great bunch of people! =D 17 of us met up, wen shin, pui mun, shuet wah, mei kuan, trecia, wei liang, yong jie, calvin, zi kang, cheryl, me, vian, cynthia, alicia, brenda, pui li and pamela, only FOUR DUDES. ==

me, zi kang, alicia and wen shin.

me, zi kang and brenda.

zi kang, brenda, me and wei liang.

Cheers! =D We decided to call it a day at around 7pm, so long my friends! See you soon. =) My eyes were watery when i sent off cheryl.....==, will surely miss her lar.

Good luck, good health, God bless you,

That's all my heart can say,

Good luck, good health, God bless you,

And guide you on your way,

No matter where you wander,

As long as we're apart,

Good luck, good health, God bless you,

Keep you and keep me safe in our hearts.

It's 2010 already in a blink of an eye, and 2009 was a fantastic year for me. Starting of the year was harsh on me, and if it wasn't of my awesome circle of friends and family, i wouldn't have gone through it. In just four more days, it's my grandma's first death anniversary. I remember clearly how my tears rolled down uncontrollably at times, but i can always feel grandma being by my side. I really hope she knows that i've learnt and grown up a lot. No worries popo. =) Form four's school life was very different from the pmr years, more stressful and hectic in a way, but more fun and joy at the same time, LOL. Hypocritical, i know. =p I've made new "friends for life" in 4S9, conclusively, i was overwhelmed by the "happening" events of 2009. I've made the biggest decision of my life so far by quitting qg, bearing the responsibility and obligation as unit leader isn't easy as well. But like i said, CHALLENGE, is life. There were many "first times" that i've experienced in 2009 as well, negatively, i failed a subject for the very first time in my life, SCREW ADD MATHS. == Okay, i guess everything is enough said, wanna move on to the next post, lol. =p

New year, new hopes. =)

I'm Finally Back

2009-12-24T23:33:00.009+08:00

to blogging! =D

So yea, i went to bengkel anugerah ketua pesuruhjaya camp at kem nurnikman, sungkai, perak, awesome. ;) The camp was four days three nights, i guess the mosquitoes were having a great partayyy! This camp was more like a rest and relax one compared to the three which i've been before, seriously. o.0 The most terrible thing of this camp was the BATHROOM, GOSH!!! You CANNOT imagine how terrible it was, i repeat, you CANNOT. But it was a great experience lar, no doubt 'bout it. =) Jueeeeee, bambooooo!!! =p *inside story*

*snap snap*, pikchas time. =)

We were in the pool at sungai klah hot spring park, showing erm..........our feet. == Notice the slides? It was damn cool 'cos all of us chs guides went down group by group, screaming like nobody else's business, LOL!! People must have been saying "look at those ULU people", *covers face*....XD

Woohoo! Crazy love sistaass! =D

Playing station games.

They were admiring my memorization skills.....hahahaha....XD

Oh.....kay....this picture is ugly. == LOL! I was like, zhi min wait! I was still having maggi mee in my mouth lar....== Survival cooking in the jungle tops everything else! ;)

Rubber trees. =) Le yi a.k.a my sensei.....was erm.....i don't know. But one thing for sure, we were really tired. =/

Nice scenery. =) All of a sudden i miss two of the 傻婆's, i mean seriously, lol. Three of us = non stop/massive amount of giggle. XD

And did i mention that i stepped on ~~bullshit~~ cow faeces once i arrived campsite? Then i stepped on it again, and AGAIN! Yes, THRICE! But i'm proud to say, you city folks have never stepped on ~~bullshit~~ cow faeces before, right? LOL!!! See that picture? That's my footprint. =p

In the toilet....random shot.

Resting on a tree trunk, there's a funny story behind this picture btw, is it vian? XD

I went straight to work on the next day after camp, and i looked like a zombie, yip chee can prove it. == Jing wen saw me at mid valley in the morning, but she didn't even come up and say hi.....she said i looked like some kind of walking dead.......=(

Guides have our very own vegetables farm now....=D, we started growing them on monday, yea. =)

My juniors collected these earthworms and tried to scare me with them, well, i was scared. == Long story short, conclusion: 我的威严尽失。 Lol!

Watched "avatar" in midnight at mid valley, right after the vege farm thingy, then work for 5 hours, movie at last! Phew~~ =D Bioluminescent forest rocks! I won't mind watching avatar for the second or third time, it's great!

This was just something i saw on my way to work, DOG POUNDS. ='(

Anyway, what's the best part working in movie magic? I can borrow dvd's for free all the time! =D

Season greetings people! MERRY BERRY CHERRY CHRISTMAS!! =D These are all my christmas presents so far. Thanks guys, i feel warm. =)

Can't wait to meet shu ling tomorrow! Orphanage it is! ;)

Signing off, bye.

勾手指

2009-12-13T00:07:00.008+08:00

*edited 11:44pm* - The update i meant was the genting post, so readers, STOP cursing me. LOL! 'Cos i saved it as draft a few days before, that's why it appeared before this post. DON'T GET IT WRONG LAR, ish. =p

I promise that i'll update my blog tomorrow kay kay kay? 'Cos i'm REALLY TIRED right now, or to say everyday. I've already uploaded photos, babbled something on it, and saved it as draft, but my eye lids are not under my command now. == So readers, if i don't update tomorrow, CURSE ME. =)

*sniff pillow*

Goodnite. =)

Genting Highlands Trip + Work Facts

2009-12-10T23:45:00.018+08:00

Before i go into my genting trip, TAADAAA! Zhen, alicia and i are on sunday's star education e10 section! =D *hugs* I still can't get over the thrill that we won the video competition, how many times do i have to say thank you to those who have voted us. =)

Heeeee~=D

So, i've been working everyday, what have i got in return? SORE LEGS, and LOADS OF FUN of course. ;)

This is the crowd when we were playing "tsunami at haeundae", EVERY SINGLE TIME we play that disc, people from all around will stand still in front of the tv, LOL.

Then when we were playing "g force", kids will just sit down in front of the tv, even some adults! o.0 Sai mm sai oh....==

While i was working, customers asked me:

i) am i christian

ii) am i korean ==

iii) am i sabahan == ==

iv) is rihanna malaysian chinese == == ==

etc.

All in all, LOL! Btw, the best part of work is there's a cute colleague entertaining me all the time, haha. XD I can eat free famous amos cookies, chocolates, i can have free massage service.......and so on, HAHA. =p I will definitely miss them later on. =) ESPECIALLY YOU JACK, happy? LOL!

Mom stopped by to see me for quite a few days, and she got two pieces of fantastic citations from mph bookstore, now they're on top of my bed, hung nicely on the bedroom wall. =) It's nice waking up everyday, telling yourself "believe anything will be alright" and "anything is possible to the believing heart", damn motivating. =D

Alright, i shall go into my genting trip already. Chun kit, i know you're waiting. == Alicia followed my family and went straight up to genting in dad's car, whereas yu song and kai xiang took bus and cable car. Actually i wanted to take cable car lor...=(

On the way up.

Yor.....why lar cut off my lil bro...==. Since we reached there quite late, we decided to just pick up some indoor games rather than buying all park tickets. We were on the so called "monorail" in this pic, the funniest thing was we bought the ticket for rm8, but then we went on the ride twice, thanks to the "ingenious" employee. =) Awwww.....i miss the weather and chilly breeze at genting...=/

We went in to the haunted mansion before getting on to that ride, SO MUCH FOR THE RM18! It wasn't scary AT ALL, but there were a few girls in front of us, screaming like nobody's business, LOL. Since they were walking and stopping abruptly, my feet got stepped for god knows how many times. == And then there was this "ghost", who was waving his hand vigorously, until he dropped his ghost mask, then he came out and picked up the thing. I was looking at him like, o.0, then i burst into laughters thinking of WONG K.K's quote, everything also must be PROFESSIONALLY wan right? LOL.

Taken during the monorail ride, genting's outdoor theme park. =) Quite misty though.

At around 7pm, the most misty time of all, we went to FLYING COASTER. =D I LOVVEEEE that ride, it's so CHUNTED! XD I was like enjoying the time of my life, LOL, at the end of the ride, i shouted "F***"....== I don't know why, but i just felt like shouting it, SYOK! =D We entered snow world after that. I don't know who started the snow fight either, but we were jumping like some sort of chimpanzees desperately begging for food, LOL, very cold lor. AND WHO THE H*** THREW SNOW ON MY FACE, pain! =( But i like the ride where you sit on a thing like float or whatever you call that. =)

We came out not long after and drank our yogurts. =)

All of us were wet, and so we headed back to hotel and bathe. We were staying in first world hotel btw. A random fact: I love toblerone chocolates. ;)

We played poker cards after that, what else? The purpose of taking this pic: the two GUYS were using my hello kitty poker cards....LOL! XD Had pillow talk later on. =)

We ate A LOT during the trip....==. On the next day, outdoor theme park it was! =D We bought express pass, as in we could just get onto to whatever rides without queing for the first time, i noticed people gave us those "fan cheong, why they can cut queue wan" kind of look. =p We were on the sungai rejang flume ride in this pic, i was shivering like mad after i got wet. =(

I should look back lar....==

Here we were on the extremely not ci gek ride....nevermind lar, play only, lol.

Kai xiang was like, "woi, do some pose lar", and so, "yo, wassup". XD

The ride was extremely not ci gek until an extend that we had to do dai b poses to entertain ourselves, there you go. =)

Boating. =)

Then kai xiang was like, u guys wanna take the boat or not, and so we were like "abuthen"...LOL. Here's another clearer pic of the surrounding. And ALICIA CHUNG, you knocked my leg with the pedal, now blue black already, pain lor! =/

LOL! What were you up to yu song? Damn funny lar this pic. XD

OMG! This picture seriously speaks a thousand words! It's damn memorable, although it costs me bloody rm15....== I was doing the tiga persetiaan some more, i think i was saluting yu song 'cos he was sitting at the other end, LOL! We were on the pirate ship ride btw. The thai guy behind me looked so constipated, alicia's look - PRICELESS. =D Hahahahaha.....XD

I'm lazy to elaborate 'bout other rides and what happened during the trip already, tired lar, lol.

One word concludes it all: AWESOME. =D

Ho ho ho! Gdnite ppl! =D

Work Hard, Play Harder

2009-12-06T18:10:00.018+08:00

;)

Like i said, i liiikkkeeee sleepovers, and so vian and i went over to zhen and jue's hse to sleepover AGAIN. =) After sleeping over at their house TWICE, i feel damn unhealthy compared to them. == Why? They eat brown rice, wholemeal bread, use brown sugar, never add condensed milk in milo, and VICE VERSA for me. Gosh! Anyway, i love them lots! ♥

We played the harry potter version of cluedo in middle of the night, lol. We watched TWO ghost movies before playing this time, BUT STILL, not ci gek wan.....==

Since it was vian's birthday on the 3rd of december, we went to mid valley and watched new moon. We dined in at the chili's restaurant for lunch, LARGE PORTION of fish and chips. o.0 Btw, jacob black a.k.a taylor lautner is HOT. *swoons* XD Unfortunately, on our way back home, sean's car broke down RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD. OMG. == So no choice lor, had to call foreman.

Then guides had our kursus ketua patrol over the weekend. WOAH, i was completely worn out, but REALLY FUN at the same time. =D I'm feeling contented and satisfied holding the post as unit leader, everytime an event or a function is successfully organized, the semangat of us rangers and COH is INDESCRIBABLE. Again, i love them lots! ♥

Our barbeque session during dinner time. =)

Group pikcha! =D

Myself, jue and sonia.

zhen, myself, felicia from styling pavilion and DUMBO. =p Teachers (pn. premah & ms. margaret) were busy commenting on our new hairstyles, LOL!

My junior (bo fang) and i. I hope you change for the better, no hard feelings kay? =) Don't forget, guide law no.8: SEORANG PANDU PUTERI SENTIASA BERGEMBIRA DAN BERSEMANGAT WALAUPUN DALAM MASA KESULITAN. ;)

After the course ended, i went to work on monday. Wheeeeeee~ =)

It's my first time working, just to gain more experience. The picture above is showing workers at mid valley setting up the christmas decorations at around 9.15am. When i reached mv at that time, i can really experience the working environment, a totally different atmosphere compared to usual times when i go shopping. Although i can only earn rm3.50 per hour, i don't mind, it's experience that matters. =) And i can seriously feel the "san fu-ness" of dad and mom now. =/

I'm working as a part time promoter at movie magic, a shop located right above little penang. Come DO DO BONG CAN lar. XD I came upon this australian customer, and his ACCENT was SOOOO heavy until that i "pardon" him for god knows how many times. >.<

I was placed at the ground floor booth on my first day of work, i've made new friends and learnt something new. ;) Thanks to hui teng for introducing me this job, and thanks to alicia for accompanying me to have lunch. =) I dressed up like an elf today btw, LOL.

Having off day for work tomorrow, genting here i come! =D

*off to paaaccckkkk*

Me Likeee Sleepover + Downhill Derby

2009-11-29T01:02:00.012+08:00

My post title says it all. ;) So, vian and i went over to zhen and jue's house for sleepover on thursday night. =) We did crazy stuffs, haha.

Blurry picture...three of us have shoorrttt hair. XD

We were watching a ghost movie before this, but it was totally plain. == Then we switched to play station lor...haha...they kept calling me NOOB all the time....== Let's have a horror movie marathon next time kay kay kay? =D

We were planning to stay up whole night, of course must have some food to fill up our tummies kan? And so we had a very unhealthy meal for supper. XD

Mee goreng + 7 up...

On the next day, it's coookkiiiieeeeessss time. =D I love baking cookies, i love eating cookies, i love cookies. =) COOKIE MONSTER.

The recipe...

TAADAAA! The smell was extremely tempting...heeee... =)

We were addicted to uno stacko after we finished baking.

Girl guides saturday activity was on as usual. This time, we had a hiking trip to taman pertanian malaysia, like what i've mentioned before.

Wen shean, alicia and i inside KTM, scrutinize my hairstyle if you're interested, everyone deserves a new hairdo. ;) When i first entered guides lodge, my friends and juniors were like...=0......not that big deal lar right? LOL.

This cycling experience was AWESOME! We were screaming "yaaahhoooooo" while going downhill, LOL. But when we were going uphill, EXHAUSTING.

On our way up to the watch tower, resting while waiting for others.

We were completely worn out...lol...i bet you can see it from our looks. Ooops...whose face got blocked? Lol, that is pn.premah's kid btw. I had a hard time watching over and catching up with him....GOSH. ==

Nice scenery. =)

Wheeee~~~ =D

Group photo....=)....jun lyn, apa kau sedang tengok tu? Btw, thanks a lot to pn.premah. =D

EX lily patrol members....;)

I was lack of sleep on the day we go hiking, i could have just doze off once i got home, but i didn't. == Why? 'Cos thanks to alicia who lent me 10 episodes of 宫心计, i'm a TVB drama fanatic in case you don't know...LOL.

Goodbye. =)

校政的腐败

2009-11-26T01:30:00.005+08:00

除了让我深感无奈之外，依然是无奈。

刚从晓靖口中得知了一些惊人的消息，真的让我痛彻心扉。精武铜乐队没了？！精武成绩一落千丈？！对啊，刚建竣的新楼，图书馆，礼堂等等，它们的确很华丽，可是我一点也不稀罕好不好！现在的精武，只不过是金玉其外，败絮其中。以前的我们在许多方面都榜上有名。在我脑海里，浮现着一幕幕清晰的画面，真的让我很怀念昔日的母校。我记得，六年级时，每逢星期二我们班都得在学校留到六点多，因为有进修班和铜乐队练习。真的是累坏了。一个星期还有三天进修班，还是一个字 - 累！可是累不代表一切，我享受当中的每一个过程。我享受放学后跟人一起挤着买杂饭，我享受在进修班偷吃被孙副校长训，我享受整个单簧管部队一起被教练罚。。。我们的铜乐队已经摘下两年冠了，欠一年就三年冠了，很可惜我们没有机会争取那份荣誉。但每当儿童节、教师节，我们整班人一起到台上演出时，那种时刻是千金难求的。我对母校那种爱的感觉，实在是很玄妙，很难解释，敏感的人都能感受到这种共振吧。

对，也许我太习惯于事事从自己的角度出发，忽略了他人的感受。可是有一件事对我来说简直是举手之劳，根本不用费丝毫力气。就是，告诉自己他们那班领导层走在对的路上，换句话说，我在满足他们仅有的一点需求 - 虚荣。

我已经失望到无话可说了，只希望他们明白，简单，一样可以富有着。拜托，他们那些不切实际的理念，让我很反胃好不好。

只想澄清，我之所以要找回消失的过去，并不是为了再一次去承受，而是为了品尝。

如果任何一个你觉得我在无病呻吟，抱歉。

Vanilla Twilight

2009-11-22T20:53:00.003+08:00

Fyi, the title is not related to the post AT ALL. Just so you know, i'm sooo addicted to owl city's songs, hah! XD Watched 2012 the other day, since everybody is talking 'bout how awesome it is, and WITHOUT A DOUBT, it's my favourite movie of the year ~~(for now)~~. =D

I'm only 19 by then....=/

Anyway, remember the asia pacific region video competition? Yup, we won first prize, a heartfelt thank you to all who voted for us, who helped us a lot through the process of making this video! =D We received our prizes from Tunku Azizah Mahmood Iskandar on sunday at our girl guides headquarters. =)

Ms. Margaret and us. Well done team mates. ;)

Tengku Puan Pahang and us. =)

I went home and changed later, then out for family yumcha session again. We visited one of our grandma's friends at sungai way old folks home. When we first reached there, the sight was awful. Why? The old folks look so lonely, and they feel EXTREMELY lonely indeed. =/ May the children who put their parents in there BURN IN HELL. ==

That's aunty lau on the right side, she's 80 years old already. EVERYTIME we go visit her, she'll say "揾日我带你啲去巴杀楼上吃个档虾面，无味精!" (cantonese)....lol....cute or not?

Just got home from meeting today....one word - TIRED. Bye.

Rangers Day Out

2009-11-19T18:10:00.008+08:00

My legs are so numb right now, lol, but it's all worth it! =) Six of us rangers hiked to shah alam agriculture park today, to find out the route we're taking next saturday. It's the first time for us to ride on KTM, we were like damn "ulu" at the KTM station, LOL, so funny can die i tell you. == We took bus and KTM throughout the whole journey. We were really exhausted when we got there, and most of all, HUNGRY!!! Btw, thank you zhen for your fruit crunch. =) Then the worst thing was, we didnt bring enough pocket money, in the end six of us had to share three plates of fried rice....='(. What's more, the fried eggs were like awfully precious gold bars to us. LOL. XD

At taman padi.

Jue with the cute little pony. =)

Zhen with the gorgeous peacock. =)

Six of us at the sudut selera. FOOOOD, haha. =D

At a fountain.

Dumbo and orang utan. XD

Try spotting the lovely blue dragonfly. ;)

Paddy field.

We were like kids visiting zoo for the very first time, haha. =D

Rabbits and pigeons?....Err....oh.....kay.

Zhen and i with the "landak", i don't know what you call it in english, haha.

They are actually quite adorable. =)

Horseeeeyyyy. =)

We all love horses...haha. =D

This one was like damn cool, there's a smaller one beside it, more manja. LOL.

With the ostriches and ducks. I've no idea why ostriches and ducks are put together, lol.

There they are, the ostriches were drinking water, sooo cute. =)

Lonely bull......=/

Resting after a long walk. H2O. ;)

Vian and i with the parrot. It only knows how to say "hello" i guess? 'Cos that was the only thing i heard, haha.

Roosters...chickens...hens...

I doubt that you can spot the deer. ==

At the entrance before we leave.

Peacock and i. Suddenly reminds me of cluedo...lol...mrs. peacock. =p

Baby peacocks. =)

Jambatan gantung! =D

Exploring more of the park next saturday. ;) Hiking trip rocks!

I'm just having this random thought, let's go backpacking around europe when we're grown ups. Save up enough money and off we go, just ride on the super convenient euro rail! Hmmm....i smell adventure. XD

Off to dinner, ciaoz. =)

We're Here For Fun

2009-11-17T18:38:00.005+08:00

right from the start. ;)

We've learnt new skills of outdoor cooking. =D

We've learnt new ways to perfect our log books. =D

THANK YOU VERY MUCH MDM LUCY! She's 70 years old already, but GIRL GUIDE SPIRIT NEVER DIE. I admire her a lot, *salutes*! =)

And to all the rangers who went under patrol camp permit, SAN FU SAI. =) Also, to both of the queen guide candidates, congratulations! PRA BAKP is oveeeeer! Go on girls. ;)

Btw, i'm absolutely delighted that WE WON THE ASIA PACIFIC REGION VIDEO COMPETITION. =DDDDD THANK YOU ALL who voted for our malaysia entry online. I bugged many of my friends to vote for us through msn and facebook, A BIIIIGGGG THANK YOOUUUUU. =)))))) *high five zhen & alicia*

Anyway, school's out! All the best and good luck to all form 5 seniors in your SPM.

We are different instruments playing our own melodies,

each one tuning to a different key,

but we are all playing in harmony,

in one great symphony.

Just so you know, i love you my sister guides. =)

P/S: If i ever get home from camps without a bruise or cut, IT'S NOT ME. XD

S.M.I.L.E

2009-11-11T18:11:00.009+08:00

有时候，我们会觉得很。。。

浪漫

兴奋

无言（炸到）

混淆

惊讶

生气

白痴（低B）

滑稽

可是到最后，记得记得保持微笑。还有，人家对你微笑也不是理所当然的。昨天，有一个朋友送了我五个字，“珍惜眼前人”。我想说，你送我两个字已经足够了，“珍惜”。珍惜你身边的一切一切，因为你永远都不知道哪里才是生命的尽头。

微笑，

是温暖而和平的，

如花般灿烂，鲜丽的，

弥漫着一种醉人的温馨，

象征着自强与希望，

蕴涵着坚实，无可比拟的力量，

是一种巨大的热忱和信心，

是一种高格调的真诚与豁达，

象征着人生的成熟与智慧，

带走了厌世、焦躁与淡漠的神情，

是通向快乐幸福的阶梯，

是画中一抹亮丽的色彩，

象征着和蔼与关切，

意味着理解和友善，

意味着真诚和爱意，

是生活中盛开的花朵，

是社会里快乐的音符，

是沟通人与人心灵的桥梁。

记得记得，保持微笑。=)

Rojak

2009-11-08T21:26:00.009+08:00

First up, sorry for not updating my blog, lately i'm VEWY BUSY, NOT FLEE lar, hehe. XD So, we had our wide game as saturday activity, i guess everyone enjoyed it kan? =)

她们的欢笑声是我最大的动力。=)

This part was damn funny...LOL. =D

They were asked to sing guide songs while keeping the water in their mouth, then one of the group sang "lu la la lu la la lu la lu la le", and it sounded like "u a a u a a u a u a e", i burst into laughters, LOL. You guys know what vian did to me? She burst into laughters as well, WITH THE WATER STILL IN HER MOUTH, SHE SPITTED TOWARDS ME LOR!!! Eeeeeeeewwwww!! Right onto my face. >.< 卑鄙，无耻，下流，贱格！

Vian dan aku seumpama "two stupid eggs". TENTULAH. HAHA. XD

Remember that i mentioned i was going to watch "This Is It"? YESSSSS! I watched it and it was BRILLIANT. OMG, i'm so in love with MJ. He is more than superb! I'll still say, rest in peace. =)

Went to sunway pyramid with mom and lil bro. We're sort of like "mid valley people", not really familiar with sp, so we just settled down and had lunch at the chicken rice shop.

Quote: Love lives forever. =)

Went to mid valley yesterday with mom and lil bro again. Watched "The Time Traveler's Wife". Had lunch at nandos. Did a lil shopping for my year end trip as well. UNIVERSAL TRAVELLER! *Visualize myself shivering*, lol.

If you order a quarter chicken meal, you can have two sidelines as well right? I was curious 'bout what is old style chips, so i ordered peri chips and old style chips lor. Then when my plate came, i was like "ey mii (mummy), where's my second sideline ah?". Then lil bro said, peri chips is the one with those spices on it, old style chips simply means without them. LOL!!! All of us were like....ZA DOU. == And so i consumed lots of french fries that day lor, but i like it. HAHA. =)

This is a one of a kind love story, absolutely love it. =)

I was bored as no advertisements or any trailers were on the screen, mom lor, always tergesa-gesa wanna go in wan. ==

Dad brought us out to pappa rich to have lunch today, then yumcha at coffee ritual. It's our favourite hang out place already. LOL.

My first piece of cake: tiramisu.

My second piece of cake: sweden chocolate. Why? SAM QING MM LENG. =/ My favourites when my sam qing mm leng: ICE CREAM & CAKE. == It helps okay.

Went home and gave elvis a bath. Still as adorable as he could be. =)

With his bunny shampoo on. =p

2nd sis said he looks like a PORCUPINE after his bath. EXACTLY. Haha.

Need to return SPBT textbooks tomorrow, i better go double check now.

Gdnite ppl. =)

You Are Going Deaf

2009-11-02T21:32:00.002+08:00

if you could hear my heart screaming inside of me.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
*breathe in* AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

*munches kit kat*

Okay, i feel better now. I just wasn't myself today. Ignore me, it's easier. Everything doesn't seem right at all.

祸不单行

2009-10-31T18:55:00.004+08:00

GUESS WHAT.....i had a second degree burn on both of my arms and a gunshot wound on my left arm today........OUCH?!

It's burning!!!!

See??? They're aching....='(

Now kena gunshot pula....==

Does the wound look like volcanoes? LOL!! =p

Today's first aid course was constructive and entertaining at the same time, haha! =) I like the testers lar, they're so fun to be around, next time yumcha together kay? =D

She must have gone mad....still smiling after committing suicide by drinking poison...LOL. Consequence of too much secretarial duties. =p

*Rolls on floor laughing* AGAIN. XD Don't "hum tao mai chiong" again lar vian...you have me us. =)

Watching "This Is It" tomorrow....woohoo!! MJ!! =D

What Am I Most Afraid Of

2009-10-30T20:39:00.003+08:00

Loneliness?
Ghosts?
Dogs?
Height?
Illnesses?
Death?
Cockroaches?
Rats?
Roller Coaster Rides?
Darkness?
(and the list goes on ==)

NO NO NO NO NO!!!

RESPONSIBILITY - is what I'm most afraid of.

And you know what? IRRESPONSIBLE PEOPLE MAKE ME SICK.

SO FRUS CAN DIE >.<

Teddy At Heart

2009-10-27T17:19:00.004+08:00

as i'm feeling down.......=/

Teddies don't hug back, but sometimes they're all you've got. But in my case, it's a piggy with shades. =)

Or in another case, my baby elvis. =D He is the BEST-EST LISTENER OF ALL. Trust me. ;)

On With Guiding

2009-10-25T20:05:00.005+08:00

I went to school on SUNDAY at 8am......TILL' 5pm...oh god...do you have any idea how tired that was?! But on the bright side, i spent my weekend with the amazing bunch of friends, so it's definitely all worth it. =)

A biiiiig thank you to both of the testers who came for our kursus pertolongan cemas, they're much appreciated. Honestly, i'm utterly and completely disappointed in some of the girls who were absent. But anyway, i'll continue the post with two tremendously funny pictures. Haha!

Our very own bunny!!! *rolls on floor laughing* - SERIOUSLY...LOL!!! Her "sigh.....what can i do" look is PRICELESS. XD

Vian, pleeeaaaaaaassssssseeeeeeeee DO NOT KILL ME. Or else you'll lose a ~~jerk~~ friend that you've known for NINE YEARS a.k.a ME. =)

We've also launched our "CHS Guides Go Green" campaign on that day, yeah. =D

Zhen, Alicia, Jue and myself with our banner.

A closer look to it. =) Thanks to kei li, isn't she superb? =D

The total recyclable materials that we've collected for the day. Good job girls. ;) Show the world that YOU, can make a difference. =)

Few of us had lunch together with the testers at dominoes pizza, we were joking and laughing like nobody's business, LOL. After that, rangers were just TOO BORED, we played with the bandages....HAHAHA. XD

I left school around 5.10pm, sunday is my family day, and so i absolutely won't miss our family yumcha session. Headed to A&W with my family just to chill out, yeah. ;) Mom was happily eating ice cream...haha...you look like a kid lar mummy! Love ya! =D

Cheers to guiding!

From Sea To Sea

2009-10-24T18:24:00.004+08:00

Girl Guiding is for me. =D

Saturday activity was off today, and 10 of us CHS Guides went to national headquarters for "Majlis Sambutan Hari Warga Emas PPPM 2009". We enjoyed ourselves as we were dancing and singing. =) But i really can't feel my legs anymore..........EXHAUSTED. =/

The SUPPOSEDLY three QG candidates. All the best to you two. =)

Best-est friend ever! We are extremely close since form 1's BAKP camp, lol. Then we were in 2A2, 3A3, sat together in class for two years consecutively, always fooling around, haha. XD She's always there for me whenever i need her, a splendid listener. =)

Everything with our logo on it, lol.

Flowers = Lovely
Flowers covering zhen's face = Picture ruined

Zhen is my BOSS.......hahahaha, a very evil one in fact. (look at the way she stood) =p

Me and dumbo a.k.a my pet elephant. =)

Bro fetched me home from school later on, btw, eating pisang goreng while driving is unsafe, not advisable for drivers. =)

Going to school for kursus pertolongan cemas tomorrow, a worn-out weekend for me.

*yawns*

Nothing Can Beat

2009-10-22T21:15:00.009+08:00

the pleasure of eating strawberries while watching CSI: Crime Scene Investigation.

~Total Randomness~ XD

Okay, so i went to mid valley with THE VERY AWESOME CLASSMATES - win yen, chun kit and kai xiang to watch "Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs" today, haha. =D Had our lunch at the chicken rice shop, it was a complete random decision, we are JUST SO RANDOM. =)

As you can see, three of them ordered pepsi and steamed chicken, while i was the only one who ordered roasted chicken and 7up, and THIS, was such an interesting topic for them. ==

All the food were on their way down to our stomach using wave-like movement called the peristalsis. (acting like a professional science class student *er herm*)

If you need some good laughs, go watch it. =)

Now here's ANOTHER RANDOM DIALOGUE.

Jia Zhen.... says:

thx sasa tham aka fat fat orang utan

-Marissa- 思敏 MJ says:
hahaha
thanks your head!
i dont accept
coz u no need to
LOL

Jia Zhen.... says:
yer..
but i still want
you can't halang saya

Both of the pictures above were taken in form 3, one was at canon goes green event, another one at taman jaya, lol. I LOVE YOU LOTS OH JIA ZHEN a.k.a MY BELOVED SECRETARY. LOL. XD

8th PJ Coy & 16th Unit Ranger will shine forever and always. =)

我在证明

2009-10-21T17:22:00.004+08:00

有时候，

悲痛哀伤是有益的，

因为刻意追求快乐是愚蠢的，

那根本不是真正的快乐。

因此，

我想大声地说，

今天我不开心。=)

偶然的，我喜欢上风信子这朵花。它的花语是“只要点燃生命之火，便可同享丰盛人生。”我想懂得花的悲欢，体恤花的疼痛，做花的知己，让自己的心灵摇曳如花。我不想错过钻入衣袖的一只蝴蝶，不想浪费人生的每一幅美景。做一朵花的知己，就是住进心灵的春天里。世界有千千万万朵花散发着诱人的清香，未来的天空下也传来迷人的歌唱。等到我抵达秋天的果园，轻轻地擦去夏天留在我脸上的汗水与灰尘时，我就可以听得见曾经对春天说过的那句话：美梦成真！他迷惑地问说，我真的愿意这样帮他？是，我愿意。原因很简单，就是他值得我真心对待。生活远远不仅是活着，它是一种不断生成、不断交替的无情延续。在我十六年的生命中，有许许多多个他改变了我，造就了我。我又有许许多多个曾经，只因某个他的一句话感动落泪，或开怀大笑。我不想我的人生，除了吃饭睡觉享受以外，头XX年马不停蹄地读书，接下来XX年为工作疲于奔命，而最后的XX年，每天蹲在家门口和路过的行人打招呼。我想在某个他的身上，注入生命的意义，携手共创拥有七彩希望之光朗照的未来。希望从来都不会舍弃我们，就只有我们才会舍弃希望。这，是风信子对我的轻声细语。

两个不同世界的人同时望出窗外，一个看到月亮，一个看到星星，他们的邂逅，会是美丽，会是痛苦？

Jumps Up In Exhilaration

2009-10-16T17:22:00.006+08:00

Cos' finals is over! Yeah!

Watched "Tsunami At Haeundae" during the pmr week, together with alicia, vian, yu song, wee heng and khin khuin at mid valley.

The movie was very touching, i cried......=/ *embarrassed*

Oh ya, thanks yu hong for the ride home, haha. =)

Attended our chemistry extra class the other day as well, sorry to say, i wasted four hours over there.

WY prank called teacher n times, and obviously i've been attacked by a massive amount of giggles because of this. LOL!

What i've learnt was "A salt is an ionic compound formed when the hydrogen ion, from an acid is replaced by a metal ion or an ammonium ion." So much for the four hours. ==

The wannabe-nerd but didn't-turn-out-to-be-one-nerd a.k.a me, STILL wants to be a nerd. =) That pair of specs belongs to my bro, lol. I don't want to wear specs, i don't want to wear specs (and the mumble goes on)........*moves head further away from screen*

On the other hand, i'm just gonna post something that is totally unrelated with the text above.

The Dialogue

YS:Let's rock!

MT: Let's stone!

Lame not?......==

So much for now! =D

I'm Stranded On A Desert

2009-10-15T18:05:00.003+08:00

always waiting for the rain that wouldn't fall.

I wish i could be like a river, always know just where to flow.
I wish i could be like a clown, always try to hide my feelings to keep myself controlled.

I have a naive, innocent faith in you. All those that you've said are nothing but merely words?
I'm downright disappointed and upset. You left me wondering, what have i done to deserve this?
I thought you were the one who could turn my frowns upside down.
I was wrong. I was so wrong.

I know i shouldn't hate you, but you know what, i can't wait to hate you.

P/S: If this hits you, then yes, i'm talking bout' you.

Note to self: Stop being ignorant to the real world, and don't fall for lies next time. =)

*motivates self*

The More We Get Together

2009-10-12T18:58:00.007+08:00

the merrier we'll be. =D

I know this is exceptionally late..........but i just have the sudden urge to post this, lol. =)

It was my lil bro's 13th birthday on the 20th of september, heh. XD You guys must be wondering, why is this picture senget one? This was taken by my eldest bro......== *hits forehead*

Speaking bout' siblings, i flipped through my photo album the other day and found all these lovely pictures. =D

The five of us! I seemed pretty cheeky in this picture, haha. (i'm the one in the yellow mickey mouse t-shirt...LOL)

My eldest bro - Esmond & I. =) I used to be extremely chubby, haha!

My eldest sis - Lorraine & I. =) This picture was taken in 牛车水 of singapore. We were on a gemini star cruise trip. Awww.......i miss that ship so much!

My 2nd sis - Celeste & I. =) I find this picture incredibly cute......LOL! She likes to play with my hair, haha. When was the last time i tied up my hair like this? Ages ago i guess......haha.

My lil bro - Ryan & I. I used to bully him a lot......LOL! We did things like fighting over mcdonalds happy meals' toys, fighting over the last piece of lollipop etc......HAHAHA!

Tears rolled down my cheeks when i first saw this picture. Miss you grandma. =)

I love my brothers and sisters soooo much! =D

P/S: I'm having monday bluueeesss......=/. I'm exceedingly concern over tomorrow. =(

*keep my fingers crossed*

向左走，向右走？

2009-10-09T02:08:00.010+08:00

*edited 1.24pm-10/10/09*

当许多人知道我做出这个决定之后，有的想劝我回心转意，有的无条件地支持我。但当我向那些原本还想劝我的人解释一切之后，他们都百分百地给予我支持。谢谢。我知道，坚持，是成功最快的方法。我也知道，有时候，我们不晓得到底坚持到什么时候才会成功。无可否认的是，一份耕耘，一分收获。可是我更想你们知道，它，已不是我想得到的收获。我还是会说，请，尊重我的决定。好吗？

Yes, at this point, many of you would think, you must have mistrusted me. I know very well that, in my position, i should be the last one to fall or give up. But just so you know, i did not. That's right, i will only be in my position for a year, but i have a lifetime to do what i want. QG, is a choice, not an obligation and it certainly can't be used to judge me. I will still earn trust and faith through what i do. I don't want to have commitment because of obligation, i want to have 100% commitment in all i do. There's a remarkable difference between 99% and 100% of commitment. If i do not have the determination and passion anymore, i certainly don't possess the qualities of a QG. I don't want to be something on the outside, but not on the inside. Please, respect my decision.

如果你依然反对我的决定，你就当以上那段话是一个背弃理想的负心人写的。如果你支持我的决定，你就当以上那段话是一个找回方向的问津者写的。

之前，我哭着写上句号。今天，我笑了。我以前的泪与累，我会自己承担。
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从中一起，就与几位好友立志要考得上。它是我人生的一段路途，过程里荆棘重重，但它是我的目标，值得我全力以赴。不知觉间，大家一起经历了许多风风雨雨。很多人事物，也随着时间转变。四年了，我正站在一个十字路口上，以为可以鼓起勇气，擦干泪水，继续往前走。可是，不知从什么时候，它变成了我的累赘，我对它开始厌倦了，我已经找不回我要考得上的初衷了。没关系，我还是告诉自己，为了自己，为了他人，继续往前走。慢慢的，感觉心力交瘁，越来越力不从心。但是停下脚步想想，我现在的身份，真的容许我做出选择？想了又想，哭了又哭，到头来还是得不到我要的答案。就因为无法释怀，这件事缠绕了我许久，多么的想抛开它，很可惜我做不到。此时此刻，已经到了必须做出决定的时候。可笑的是，我的心，还是七上八下，久久未能平复，感觉压力得很，是自己施给自己的压力。就这样目瞪口呆地，眺望着茫然的远方，迷惘的前路。

也不知道多少天了，我不停地告诉自己不要放弃。。。不要放弃。。。不要放弃。。。不要放弃。。。不要放弃。。。不。。。要。。。放。。。弃。原来，我没有做出这个决定的勇气。怕后悔，怕遗憾，怕面对，怕承担。又原来，我是一只比宿头乌龟都不如的人。我很累。

依然站在分叉路口的我，到底应该，向左走，向右走？

它，对我而言，是何物？

-失去方向的有心人-

以上这篇心情日记是我在前几天写下的，而今天，我有勇气将它公诸于世，是因为我已经有了决定。有了决定之后，如释重负，呼吸也特别顺畅，没有那种心里总是不舒服的感觉，真的很爽。我知道我做出这个决定，有人会反对我，有人会支持我。可是，我始终希望你们会尊重我的决定。没有人会感受得到我做出这个决定时的痛，放弃自己梦想的痛。但我清楚知道，梦想，不是我要到达的终点。我不敢想象我到底辜负了多少人，我只知道，我必须做出决定。不能被否定的一个决定。请原谅我这一次的自私，因为我只想回到最初，做回平静的自己。对不起。

- 有了成就，我未必快乐；有了快乐，我未必失败。-

I wish i could find a word to replace sorry...............as i really am, it's beyond description. Yes, i am here to admit, i've lost the passion, i've lost the determination. I know i will leave many of you in utter disappointment and pain, despise me in any way if you want to. I know this is a huge mistake, and i have to rewrite it. I will not seek to fix blame for the mistakes of the past, but i will accept responsibility for the future. I don't want to look at my past choices anymore. And of course, thank you for those who have been backing me up all along, i appreciate that. Making this decision pains my heart so much, i'm...............sorry.

This, marks the end of the journey, with you, and you.

:'(

PMR Holidays Rest Days

2009-10-08T20:57:00.009+08:00

Look at that kid!!! Isn't he just ADORABLEEEEEE? =D He is one of my neighbhour's grandson. =) So, when i got back home after school on tuesday, then i started preparing lunch for myself, he just appeared at my doorsteps (riding on his cute little vehicle of course XD). I invited him in, and oh gosh! He is REALLY CUTE! He pulled my shirt to wherever he went, and asked "WHY" about everything.

This is a picture of him being extremely interested in "The Big Book Of The Animal Kingdom", LOL. I was having a hard time pronouncing all the DINOSAURS' NAMES to him kay!!

他那充满童真的双眸，让我偏爱他那种单纯，更怀念自己稚气满满的年代。=)

Went to mid valley with sisters yesterday night, to catch a nighttime movie. Had dinner at Noodles Station btw. =)

It was my first time going in cinema to watch an 18PL movie, LOL. Not scary at all, but kinda gruesome though. =/

Went to A&W for waffles as supper after the movie. I know, this picture is extremely blur, the car was crossing a bump, so my hand shaked, haha. Who cares, it was an unflattering shot of myself anyway. =p

Headed to 1Utama with jia zhen, jia jue and jia ling today. =D Had lunch at Penang Nyonya. The food there ~~sucks~~ are in poor taste.

Watched "Surrogates" after that.

Unusual storyline, but the movie was so-so.

My favourites: famous amos sweet & sour strips, sushi. =D Bought a pair of flats as well. And a book for my friend. =)

P/S: If you feel stressed out, have SEX. (sleep, eat, exercise) XD

Aku Cinta Pada MU

2009-10-04T01:24:00.002+08:00

Aku cinta pada............

MU.

Get the point? =)

珍惜。真挚

2009-10-03T21:24:00.004+08:00

朋友，不是挥手就能告别的。朋友让我从思考中认识自我；从学习中寻求真理；从独立中体验自我；从计划中把握时间；从表达中锻炼口才；从交友中品味成熟；从实践中赢得价值；从兴趣中攫取快乐；从追求中获得力量。生活是忙碌的：忙着看、忙着听、忙着说、忙着走。每当我累了，这个世界不会听到我心中的呐喊，但朋友会。朋友和我一起向生命中的青春举杯，让青春不再沉重。很多时候，我只因他们的一句话，在自己的世界里建筑了快乐城堡。又有很多时候，他们不希望我懂得什么叫放弃，因此，他们永远是我生命中的明灯。想一想，似乎不是我选择了此生，而是此生选择了我，一切缘份都已经被安排与注定。就算他们在南轅北辙，其实只不过是零距离，因为他们都在我内心的某一个角落。夜阑人静，我听到内心在呜咽，一声一声，清清楚楚。原来，虽然旧日的轨迹仍在，时间的列车却呼啸着开过去了，不再回头。就因如此，我要活在当下，不要让未知数主导我的心灵。

我要珍惜我们这个时代别具一格的爱与诚。

祝所有和我一起走出这段非同凡响人生的人，和所有曾经与我擦肩而过的人，中秋节快乐。=)

此时此刻，我最想看到的，不是八月十五的圆月，而是婆婆在我身边和我一起吃团圆饭。很多人都常常跟我说，这世界没有不可能的事。我现在跟你说，有。

Spot The Similarities

2009-10-02T17:53:00.003+08:00

Sooo.........there has been a week of NERVE RACKING EXAMS, and i definitely need adequate amount of rest/sleep/break/time out, THANK GOD IT'S FRIDAY. =D Btw, spot the noticeable similarities in these pictures below. =)

Spot them not?

YES! I always have snacks and munchies while i'm studying. =p

And this is me, after one depressing/miserable/tormenting/distressing/weary/fatigued week.

To everyone out there, TAKE CARE! =)

A Random Update

2009-09-25T01:03:00.007+08:00

I feel that i need to have accountability towards my blog, LOL! *kua jiong* And so here am i writing a random blog post. =)

Watched "Up" on the last weekend of mid term break, quite long ago though. I had distinctive feelings towards this movie. I guess it's because of Russell, playing the role of a scout, it just gives me a particular point of view towards this movie, haha.

And tadaa! My pwetty pwetty sash! =D It means the world to me! If you know me, you'll know exactly why. =)

Watched "Where Got Ghost" today with mom and lil bro. I laughed frantically throughout the whole movie, and some parts of the movie really did scared me. There was this guy sitting on my left, i totally underestimated his coolness, LOL! He jumped up A FEW TIMES when he was startled. Totally embarassing. =p

And now THIS! Don't you think Hurley from the movie utterly and completely resembles ELVIS! =D He is a glutton, he is ~~fat~~ chubby, and he is just so adorable! Haha! =p I just loved it, enough said. =)

I've been playing with elvis throughout out my raya holidays, it's kinda like a routine of mine already, lol. I have had several attempts capturing a "standing with two legs shot" of him, well, obviously i failed, miserably. =.= Elvis' moves were like "standupgrabcucumbereatcucumberlikenobodysbusiness". Get what i mean? I was just trying to invent a phrase longer than "supercalifragilisticaspialidocious". =) Bear with me. XD

He was a present from Ellie to me, THANKS EL! =D I'll cry hysterically if he dies. ='(

Just so you know, i'm in a terribly good mood right now, hah! =D

Ciaoz!

我好想周公

2009-09-19T02:31:00.004+08:00

我正享受着，

失眠的乐趣，

孤单的遐想，

失落的茫然。

先睡心，后睡眼。

祝各位，晚安。=)

Belated Pictures

2009-09-10T18:30:00.005+08:00

Spot me. =)

Program Rakan Muda

Ungu Gathering

Spot me not? =)

If You Know

2009-09-09T16:07:00.004+08:00

the feeling of

得闲死唔得闲病

Then you should know the reason i'm neglecting my blog. =)

Bear with me readers, I WILL BE BACK, i have tons of stuffs to update anyway. =D

Finals is just around the corner........and add maths IS KILLING ME. ='(

I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths. I hate add maths .

VERY MUCH

I Am A Malaysian

2009-09-01T18:48:00.010+08:00

and I'm proud to be one. =)

Malaysia, land of smiles, adventure, mystery,

A kaleidoscope of colours,

Reaching out to her admirers,

In a most intriguing way,

Such an immortalised land,

Since time immemorial,

Are we blessed or not?

Truly amazing,

How she floods your senses,

And fill your head with memories of,

Many wondrous moments.

Sun and sea and forests,

Zoom in to the pinnacle of,

Energy and exuberance.

Malaysia, my home, my beloved land,

I adore you,

Never shall I forsake you.

P/S: I love nasi lemak and roti canai. =)

Frustration

2009-08-29T21:38:00.006+08:00

over my name......=.=

FOR THE VERY FIRST AND LAST TIME, i beg everyone of you, pleeeeeeaaaasssssssseeee spell my name correctly. ='(

not MARRISA
not MARISA
not MARRISSA
not MERISSA
or in whatever creative ways that you can think of.

IT'S MARISSA

is it THAT hard? T_T......and pleeeeeaaaaaaaaassssssseee don't pronounce it as MARYSSA, or the EJAAN BAHASA MALAYSIA way......=(......

P/S: I'm seriously serious.

They Are My Everything

2009-08-27T23:18:00.009+08:00

and i love them more than you'll ever know. =)

Had our sisters day out on tuesday, haha! =D Went to mid valley with 2nd sis, had sushi king as lunch (hehe, i damn addicted to sushi XD), and watched G.I. Joe. For me it's like the best picture of the year! GO WATCH IT. Feel my thrill. ;) I like hanging out with 2nd sis, haha! Although she's 22, and i'm 16, but what fills in the gap is not that six years of time, but it's a whole lot of LOVE. =) We used to walk to petaling store together, it's a mini market, to buy "virginia gold" cigarettes for grandma, lol! Yes, we were still kindergarten and primary school kids during that time, but the uncle there knows very well that we're getting cigarettes for our grandma. Then mom was very fond of buying the same shirts for us, so even if we have 6 years of age gap, SOME PEOPLE THOUGHT THAT WE WERE TWINS. LOL! How ridiculous....XD

Love ya sister! =)

_______________________________________________________

And here comes our UNGU GATHERING. =D Although a lot of them cant make it, but still the ones who came enjoyed ourselves. =) It was held at my place, kai boon, kar chun, jes cee, sui lun, yi shiuan, kar yaw, brian, li xien, qi hui and wei liang came. MANY FORM 4s FFK LOR. =/

All of us were laughing like mad over THE TOPIC. XD

The form 5 guys.

PURPLE ALIENS =D.

Kena pushed into the pool already, lol!

Kai Boon & Yi Shiuan without spectacles.

Kai Boon trying very hard to be taller than Yi Shiuan, haha! XD

Ganas........

Yi Shiuan & myself. We have the SAME BIRTHDAY, both of us are from CHEN MOH 6K, both of us are TROOP/UNIT LEADER FOR SCOUTS/GUIDES, and of course, we're in UNGU. =D LOL! If this is not what you call coincidence, i don't know what is!

Jes Cee a.k.a NUMBER 1 STALKER & myself. XD DO NOT underestimate her stalking skills/techniques or whatever you call that. LOL!

Sui Lun acting cool, haha!

Peace. =)

Damn, i'm missing them already, haha!

Bye. =)

我忍。。。

2009-08-26T20:06:00.002+08:00

我舔到了一些带咸味的液体。心里带着童真的精灵都在彷徨地注视着我。
长长的藤蔓在梦境里生长，我的眼睛怎么也睁不开。
可是那些花朵，那些颜色，似乎是真实存在的，又似乎是梦境。。。
我听到潺潺的流水声，那些色彩斑斓的不仅仅是幻觉。。。
在楼顶上，风很大。掠起头发，脸庞冷冷的，但我的心更冷。
我在看，我什么时候丢失了你。
那些荡漾的是你我共同的回忆。那些风吹起的，竟然吹走了尘埃，却吹不走我的伤感。。。
我不知道，我们原本是在哪里的。我只知道，我现在在这里。。。
睡了一整天，不知道怎么清醒，也许我根本就不想清醒。
手里还紧紧握着我写的文字，点点滴滴化成的墨迹，瞬间被泪滴弄散了。
我被困在一座坚固的心牢里，我也不知道是什么一回事。
你的眼睛是一片湖泊，我不知道你在想什么。
遥想睫毛下你的眼睛，那般深邃。
为什么眼看你在我眼前，但心与心的距离却处于千里之外。。。
我读出你眼中的苍凉，但你却读不出我眼中的渴望。。。
我多么地渴望如果，如果这一切都不是真的。。。
雨后总会天晴。。。但这条路，布满了荆棘，需要我拿出勇气来克服。
我手里的日记本，印记着岁月的蹒跚足印。。。
我望着天空，太阳健在。。。
但谁来告诉我，如果忧郁是蓝色。。。那无奈，该是什么颜色？
我再次屏住呼吸，让自己不再哭泣。。。
但我眼前原来的迷人风情，突然成了无比的枯燥与单调。。。
那又有谁来告诉我，如果寂寞是白色。。。
我此时此刻的情感，该是什么颜色？

I Would Like To Call Today

2009-08-25T15:39:00.008+08:00

UKH DAY! =D

Hmmm....what have i done today?

Brokeback Mountain Tour

Awwww....so sweet. =) -----LOL XD

Prepared Breakfast (煎蛋 loti)

Wee Heng was so gek dong...lol!

Then Wei Liang showed the mm song look, haha!

But still, their 煎蛋 loti were successfully cooked. =)

Oh, not forgetting THIS, they dropped it, lol!

And also, Alicia's masterpiece which made Wee Heng laughed like some kind of maniac. =p

Makan Time =)

Lol....finger lickin' good. =p

I bet you wouldn't wanna know what was Alicia doing, hah!

SOAR TO THE MAXIMUM. =D

Btw, there's ONE VERY GOOD REASON for you to join UKH. =)

WE HAVE OUR VERY OWN SURI RUMAH TANGGA. =D

FAMILY PIKCHAS =)

Btw, 中元节（鬼节） is around the corner right? So....do be careful, or else..........

This friendly ghost will haunt you at night. She's Casper's friend i think. =)

P/S: If you don't know who's Casper...you're missing out. ;)

Gotta Get Get, Gotta G-G-G Get Get Get, Get Get

2009-08-16T17:59:00.011+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates readers! I've turned into a lazy blogger...=/...well, i'm pretty much busy lately. So, what happened last sunday? Hmm....I KNOW! I went to "coffee ritual", it's located at section 14, the place is serene and tranquil. =) The ambiance there is just so soothing! Besides that, the classic pancake, iced lemonade, cream sauce pasta, sweden chocolate cake, EVERYTHING there, are nice, haha! =D They even brew coffees on the spot themselves, cool man! Free wi-fi available as well. *none advertising purposes* LOL. Then, school days went on as usual. I hosted the first COH meeting on friday, was pretty nervous at first, lol! But everything turned out to be fine. And sorry if i've said or done something wrong, i'm just on the very first stage of the soaring stepping stones, bear with me. =) On saturday, i attended the "program rakan muda masyarakat" together with sonia, zhen and jue. It was facilitated by the sunway university college, i guess all the participants have learnt a lot, and not forgetting the fun we had. =D All of us always say that being a leader has to be committed, honest, accountable etc, now i know, LIVE BY THEM and WALK THE TALK. =D Headed to mid valley with alicia and wei liang later on, watched "aliens in the attic" at GSC SIGNATURE for the very first time, haha. =D Alicia slept during the movie, not that the movie is boring, maybe the atmosphere is too comfortable? LOL. But still, *give her the mm song look* hmph!

Went back to chen moh today with alicia, vian , zhen, jue, jvn ying, and wei liang. Listened to some briefings for the upcoming camp, we are going back as facilitators. =) Had some interactions with a number of taman petaling girls as well, they can be really crazy, haha! We even practiced dance steps together, for the campfire on second day of camp, ~~i think~~.

Loving sunshine. ;)

Stay healthy and happy as always. =)

P/S: Setting "boom boom pow" as your alarm tone, IS DAMN BOTHERSOME, hah! =p

Speechless

2009-08-08T15:18:00.007+08:00

I am.........speechless. At that very moment, I asked myself, "For real?!". And yes, it IS real.

Court Of Honour 09/10 - 8th PJ Coy & 16th Unit Ranger

Unit Leader: Marissa Tham
Assistant Unit Leader: Sonia Wong
Secretary: Oh Jia Zhen
Assistant Secretary: Alicia Chung
Coy Leader: Thing Jia Wen
Treasurer: Oh Jia Jue
Assistant Treasurer: Soh Zhi Min
Quartermistress: Chung Pei Jia
Assistant Quartermistress: Soh Jing Wen
Test Coordinator: Hau Han Lin
Assistant Test Coordinator: Puen Yong Jia
Public Relations Officer: Lai Kit Yeng
Assistant Public Relations Officer: Lee Vi-vian
Head of Resources: Liew Li Lin

*Sorry! I can't remember the patrol leaders and patrol seconds! =/*

Wow...four years passed, and I've no idea what should I be feeling right now. Guiding is not just my high school life, but it is a part of me! =D All the ups and downs I've been through, and THIS IS IT. The firm bond we have between us, the loving sisterhood, and the genuine friendship, they are beyond expressions. =)

Jie MIN has done a great job, now it's Sze MIN's turn...LOL! =D

Together,

we will dream more,

learn more,

do more,

and become more.

A promise from,

Unit Leader 09/10

Marissa =)

Whenever you make a promise,

Consider well it's important,

And when made,

Engrave it upon your heart.

沉沉浮浮

2009-08-07T21:52:00.002+08:00

此时此刻，我只想珍惜感动。在感动中耳濡目染，不由自主地逼近那些曾经感动过我的灵魂。也许有一天，我也会在无意间成了感动的小小源头，淙淙地流向了另一个渴望感动的双眸。

今晚的我，决定要贪欢在梦中，让昔日的笑容和着今日的泪水定格在心灵深处。无论结果如何，我都要一路奔流，一路高歌，一路曼舞，笑对得失。我将摆脱现实与梦幻之间的混淆。

晚安 =)

-思敏-

Just An Update

2009-08-01T23:42:00.004+08:00

Yumcha with mom and 2nd sis at pappa rich last sunday, the one located at kuchai lama. The place was SO CROWDED, haha.

Had my favourite half boiled eggs, mexican bun, & iced lemon honey. =)

Then it was UKH's annual general meeting on friday. I'm officially the treasurer of UKH, hehe. ;) I earnestly hope that the new batch of committee can strive for the best, we're gonna PUT OUT ALL THE STOPS. =D

Money, money, money...lol!

Guides saturday activity was as usual, we had outdoor cooking. Totally cool man. =)

Went home and bathed after saturday activity. Headed to sunway with mom, eldest sis and 2nd sis. Yumcha at pancake house. The blueberry pancake was DELICIOUS. =p

So long! =)

Superb Saturday

2009-07-26T17:55:00.007+08:00

Watched "Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince" with mom and lil bro at mid valley last sunday. Me being a super harry potter fan, gave myself an impermanent tattoo of it, hehe =p. Despite that, the movie was unlikable, no offence. =)

It was a HUGE RELIEVE for me as i've gone through the first interview. =) Went for saturday activity as usual yesterday. Headed to redbox at the gardens with alicia, vian, win yen, yu song and chun kit after that. And sparkling juice totally rocks. ;) Then wei liang and kai xiang joined us, went straight back to school for band concert later on. IT WAS FANTASTIC. =) We had tons of fun and laughters for the whole day. =D

Met yong jie at the band concert as well. Small group of us 6K-ians...haha! Hui Teng was wearing OUR shirt, lol. =D

Yong Jie, Jvn Ying, Wei Liang

I've no idea what on earth was yu song doing...LOL!

Some of them were playing cooking utensils in this performance. ASTOUNDING =)

Releasing helium balloons during the opening ceremony.

OH YA, congratulations to 王八蛋 for being elected as the new president of Bulan Sabit Merah Malaysia SL(Y)64. =D I'm so proud of you wei!

I shall call her HSL Tan Win Yen next time. LOL! HSL stands for head section leader. =)

P/S: Having second interview tomorrow. *breathes in...breathes out*

三人行

2009-07-16T21:15:00.006+08:00

文 - 闻鸡起舞之士，
彦 - 燕语莺声于春；
晓 - 小晌午沉甸甸，
靖 - 径情直遂欣然；
思 - 丝丝入扣待时，
敏 - 泯没形迹呓语。

我们将风雨同路，
学会，爱 . 不完美的自己;
追逐，爱 . 不完美的独特。

As Simple As That

2009-07-15T16:00:00.023+08:00

Yes!! Our 4th Night Gathering has been successfully held! =D Thanks to all scouts and guides, clubs and societies for attending this campfire. We even had our CHS Guides reunion buffet lunch on sunday, it was memorable. =) This reunion signified the end of our 21st Anniversary Celebration. Looking back, I've been through joys and sorrows in these 4 years.

Community Service - I was form 2 back then, we visited an old folks home weekly, I really miss those old people. Hong Jin, Alicia and me went back the other day to visit them, and they appreciated us. =) We chatted with them, sang a variety of songs to them, cooked 汤圆 together with them. They told us how much they like 周旋，Cliff Richard, how much they suffered from arthritis. I still remember when Alicia and me walked to a convenience store to buy 单眼佬凉茶 for a popo over there, and how they praised us as nice kids, lol! Then I bragged about them in front my grandma, haha! They also never stop telling us to study hard. I miss them, A LOT! =/

Joint Camp - OMG, this was like my best camp experience of all! Through this camp, I've got to known a bunch of awesome friends, from St. Joseph's Institution, KRS, PBSM, etc. Alicia and me miss having rides on the lorry, lol! The telematch was impressive, including other outdoor activities we had. We even had lunch by the waterfall. This camp was truly a BLAST! =D

Caving in Gua Tempurung.

Abseiling - I fell down a gazillion times. Ouch!!

I was the one kena splashed!

Court of Honour's Camp - This camp was meant for COH, to tighten the bond between us, so that we can work things out together as a team. We had tons of fun! We played along the beach, had barbeque by the beach as well, slept in a unique dorm (it's like the one in Madeline cartoon).

I was doing outdoor cooking.

Annual General Meetings - I was the afternoon coordinator in form 2, asst. test coordinator in form 3, test coordinator in form 4. All these positions come with great responsibilities. I've learnt a lot, gone through ups and downs. At the end of the day, through the culmination of my laughters and tears, I grew up. =)

Singapore Trip - THIS, was definitely unforgettable! We visited SJI! We met Rovik, Selva, Imran etc. We seriously miss each other. =) It's good to see each other again after having much fun at the integration camp. Prefects, LKT, LPS participated this trip as well. We visited Science Centre, Sentosa Island, Cavenagh Bridge......It was fun fun fun! =D

Canon Goes Green - This was a very meaningful event. It was totally enjoyable having the chance to plant trees together with the community. I planted quite a number of Jelutong trees. =) Alicia and me took part in the Eco Hunt, and we emerged as the 2nd runner up!

Proficiency Badges - Woah...these are beyong doubt our hard work. How do you think our sashes come about...lol! I remember clearly how grandma helped me through all the badges. She taught me how to cook during jurumasak and pekhemah test, she taught me how to embroider during kraftangan test etc. I love you grandma =).

Pekhemah badge.

Penganyam bakul badge.

All Round Cord Award.

Friendship & Sisterhood - Cherish them. Enough said. =)

High 5 bread factory visit.

Hari Belia Negara '08. Vian and me. LOL!

Executive International Signature Programme ( spot Ms. Gillian Wilcox) =)

We stick together wherever we go, haha! This was at Petrosains. ;)

She is not just my senior, I take her as my sister. =)

Best friends forever. =D

Hiking at Bt. Gasing.

LOL! Playful Heng! =p

We went around finding sponsors for our Thinkind Day Carnival, to raise funds for our Guides Lodge. =)

青春，是一次疼痛的绽放。当现实不如意，我能做的，就是缄默不语。十六岁的花开花谢，让我疲惫却不后悔，让我心碎却不堪憔悴。现在的我，不免有些怅然若失，失去许多，得到许多。　　　　　　　　　　但是，那道我亲眼所目睹的黑夜彩虹，沉淀在心中，会是一种永恒。　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

梦中的自然和谐，众里寻它千百度，但愿蓦然回首，它却在客观现实里。

P/S: I just feel like posting this, don't ask why. CHS Guides will forever be a part of me. =)

An Usual Update

2009-07-07T16:02:00.005+08:00

I fell ill...result of burning midnight oil just to complete ranger log, permit log, moral kerja amal...this and that...I feel okay now, thanks to H2O. =) It was Wei Liang's birthday on 23rd june, went to mid valley with him, hui teng, vian and khin khuin to have a small celebration. He likes the present that i've chosen for him very much, haha! Anyway, we had our lunch at sushi king and watched 17 again. The movie was...so so....Oh, and i don't like sushi all these while, but i'm in love with them since that day, lol! Alicia even brought me to jusco on saturday, and i bought A LOT of sushi home, my siblings like to eat sushi as well, haha. =)

LOL! 赖小丽

Went to mid valley again on sunday with mom and lil bro. Watched transformers 2, the movie was breathtaking! I cant describe the awesome-ness of it in mere words! =D

Btw, it was shu ling's birthday on 2nd july, and i gave her a very special present, haha! That is, my chinese exam essay, lol!

I wrote the title " 一个影响我至深的人", the one whom i wrote about was her, haha! And i got good marks + comments. =D

This picture of us was taken in last year's after PMR programme - a visit to Beryl's factory.

Best Friends Forever =)

Had our saturday activity as usual, night gathering is approaching! Lets not just do our best, but give our best!

Kit Yeng and her strange expression...lol! =p We were doing the souvenirs. =)

I also did a stupid thing the other day...lol! Lazy to elaborate, conclusion is that the picture above will appear in our night gathering book...there's a funny story behind...LOL!

My current addiction. ;)

Belated picture from Chun Wei - eldest sis & i eating ice creams =)

I Know This Is Late

2009-07-01T16:05:00.011+08:00

but

I've never shed tears for someone whom I've never met before.

He is a true legend.

He is a great artist.

Yes, I was not born in the 80s, but I still love him.

Despite the tabloid junks, I still love him, and forever more. =)

I don't discriminate him because of the plastic surgeries he had.

He is the KING OF POP, and forever will be.

Listening to: Don't Walk Away - Michael Jackson =)

有感而发

2009-06-23T20:40:00.005+08:00

两个简单的字眼，就足以形容我此时此刻的感觉—————开心。=）对，就是开心。昨晚，高枕无忧的睡了一觉。早上，朦朦胧胧地睁开双眼，感觉双脚冰冷，坐起来伸个懒腰，望一望地上。唉，我又踢被子了。带着轻快的心情上学去，迎接新的一天。

今天，我知道了
-许多人惊呼光阴似箭，感叹岁月悠悠。但是，如果不想被时间摆布，就得在人生的旅途中做些有趣好玩的事。你想对自己说，“我只是十六岁”，还是“我已经十六岁”，就由你来决定吧！

-人们总会后悔做出某件事，“后悔”这两个字就一味地活在我们的日记里。成天为无法磨灭的痕迹后悔，结果会改写吗？奉告你一句连幼儿园学生都会的九字真言“都过去了，还想那么多？！”

-考试后，我有着处理不完的职务，承担不完的责任。但是，一想到苦了之后得到的“甜”，就会打起精神，鼓舞自己向前迈进。“先甜后苦，苦后再甜”，这是人生的调味料。=）

-人们总爱好比，对学生而言，最爱比分数的高低。总而言之，什么高矮肥瘦，就连一些无关紧要的小事，也爱比。当你放弃“比”的乐趣，你就能“比”别人过得更加快乐。

-人生中，我们总是在“准备”。读书考试，为的是准备将来找到工作；把赚到的钱储起来，为的是准备买房买车；买房子，为的是准备年老时有个栖身之所；老了，戴上老花眼镜，准备跟子女交代身后事。你可以选择，要“生存”，还是“生活”。

-跌了一跤，可以爬回起来。搭错公车，可以停下一站转车。化学公式背不熟，也不至于造成家破人亡吧！你想，这世界真的有什么大不了的事吗？开心固然好，但是不收敛片刻的笑容，挺无聊吧？伤心是一种情感，但记得记得，要学会“忘记”。=）

你此时此刻要对得起自己的话，就要好好地度过每一分每一秒。因为，你就像我一样，我的十六岁，注定会在十七岁遗失。我深知，我们总不能贴张“寻岁月启事”就能把它们找回，因此，在失去之前，请好好珍惜。=）

Say Goodbye To Mid Term

2009-06-22T17:03:00.005+08:00

Yeah! Mid term exams are finally over....it took like forever...=.= Anyway, i brought six form 2 guides to setapak for penjaga kanak-kanak test on 12th june. We took LRT to wangsa maju, then hired two cabs to that childcare centre....the journey took us 1 hour. I was kinda worried though. Thank god we made it through =). It was enjoyable + tiresome...haha! Kids are such carefree beings, their innocent thoughts and expressions just remind me of my childhood. When simply a packet of mamee or simply half an hour on the playground can satisfy me. I miss my childhood a lot! I've got the urge to go for the swing and slide now, haha! 我永远都会是一个~~长不大~~不想长大的孩子。=)

I found this in the book shelf, the contents are stupid...=.= i've no idea why is it meant for children...

_________________________________________________________

Btw, i went to SMK Sultan Abdul Samad's cultural night last saturday. I like it very muuuuch =D. I was running to catch up time the whole day, lol! Had lunch with my family at 三友冷气酒家 at state, then headed to Bangsar Village (it's a mall if you don't know) for teatime and some shopping.

THIS gadget was scary....lol!

This culturual night was themed "Supernova - An Explosion of Brilliance".

You said something that completely threw me off guard today. Do you actually know how much words can hurt?

朋友。假如

2009-06-18T16:02:00.003+08:00

朋友，
你触碰了我平时秘而不宣的脆弱和感动，
你调出了我体验中的某一个瞬间和念头，
你撼动了我平时绷着的那股莫名其妙感，
你让我觉得有点酥，
有点麻，
有点沉重，
也有点轻快。

此时此刻，
我正享受着那疲倦之后，
眼睛微微潮湿的感觉。

假如，
这一切可以从来，
可以让我不留下一丝遗憾，
一丝惭愧，
一丝内疚，
那该有多好呢？

啊，
对了，
在我让自己小睡片刻之前，
要提醒自己，
这深邃的世界，
不容许。。。。。。假如。

Exam Stress

2009-06-17T13:42:00.004+08:00

Since when am I hoping to pass rather than aiming an A?
Yes, I hate being evaluated by tests.
Although I always study in the nick of time,
but I still take exams seriously.
I was damn kiasu towards results,
like I can't accept the fact being eliminated from the ten placings,
or I can't accept the fact that I get 70++,
silly me. =.=

When I first got to high school,
I got myself involved in loads of stuffs,
and so I neglected my studies,
but I just don't mind getting standard results.

I am having insomnia everynight,
I don't know what caused it.
I crammed all physics, chemistry, biology facts up,
but ended up jumbling all the facts up during exams.
I don't want to have a single trace of red mark in my report card!
But I have the feeling that I will.

I hate all three science subjects.
Wish me luck,
I still have the chance to TOTALLY FLUNK all paper 3. =)

I feel like a fool,
right now.

I'm Lazy To Come Up With A Title

2009-06-09T23:13:00.010+08:00

Woah....i havent been updating my blog for a looong time. =/ Anyway, on last monday, UKH opened a skills training course for all the members. Kinda disappointing though, many of them didnt show up. =( But we did learnt a lot, from all the bengkel, bilik jahitan and bilik masakan. We need some serious bonding, haha!

On last thursday, went to mid valley with alicia and vian, watched "Terminator Salvation". I didnt quite understand though, haha! Alicia and vian BOTH spilled my popcorn, laughed non stop some more. *glare at them* But thanks to them for accompanying me to carrefour, and buy all those JUNKFOODS, hehe =p.

Went for a swim on saturday. Three of my siblings, eldest sis' boyfriend, mom and me went to Sepang Goldcoast and Morib Beach as a day trip on sunday.

Dad brought us to castell restaurant to have lunch the next day. Then i went home and bathe my guinea pig =D.

Went back to school today with vian, to discuss our putrajaya wetland trip with teacher. After the discussion ended, we helped out a lot at teacher's office, and had a LONG talk with teacher. When i say LONG, i mean LONG, lol! Then both me and vian hired a cab to sunway pyramid, since my lil bro was over there with his primary classmates. Had nandos as LUNCH at 4pm...=.=. I did something EXTREMELY FISH today. To summarize the whole incident, just so you know, i BOWLED ON THE WRONG LANE. TWICE SOME MORE. Fish fish fish fish fish! I'm lazy to elaborate and all, damn tired lah lately. =(

Till then, live your life. ;) Bye. =)